Ella's From Somewhere Else

Ella’s from somewhere else You see her and you know That you’re slipping through the felt Through the seams of the place and the pain I feel the pain of it sideways like a kiss, stellar rays Like a beached whale, spaceship, black hole somewhere orbiting away Ella takes me to the place We first met in the cornfield, Not a cornfield, eating snacks Snakebite sister, mother, sister, I havе lost what I kept Five years old, fivе years ago, I first loved you Your eyes like I’ve known them forever I’ve known nothing like I know you Ella takes me to the flatness of the loss How the comfort of your touch now Is a trigger without cause How trusting, even knowing you is dangerous in my heart I’m not able to keep constant, to keep on In the magic, I found wonder, I found fear In this room now, I still see him standing closer as I scream Ella takes me in her stillness to the stream Where you jumped in, fully submerged And I felt inside a dream Like I’ve known you, like you’re family, like I’m here Ella takes me to the place we said goodbye If I’d known it was the last time, I don’t know if I’d cry Maybe I’d say something about what you mean How even though we’ve reconnected, your loss ripped open the seams Leaving nothing, just a vastness, in between Now I feel like I am scifi, I am porous, I am mean I want to go back to our mom’s porch and scream You’re my brother, you’re my family, you are everything to me You’re my brother, you’re my family, you are everything to me Ella’s from somewhere else