Nightmare Being 19

[Verse 1] I got this crippling fear of being average in this perfect world Like it's me versus all of these sexy and confident girls I'm so awkward, embarrassing, everyone's on something I'm such a loner in here These bodies are paper thin, it makes me hate my skin Wanna disappear [Chorus] I'm honestly scared right now I feel like a child left out On my own, being weird at the party Everyone's kissing everybody When is a politе time to leave? Whеn did life escalate? And when did my friends all change? Now I don't recognise anybody So damn lonely It's a nightmare tryna be It's a nightmare tryna be nineteen [Verse 2] Weird how I used to be happy dressed up as myself Right now I'd pay to be just about anyone else I'm red-faced and fumbling, the perfect mannequin Model the thoughts of my peers A copy and paste it girl, done tryna save the world Just trying my best to fit in [Chorus] I'm honestly scared right now I feel like a child left out On my own being weird at the party Everyone's kissing everybody When is a polite time to leave? When did life escalate? And when did my friends all change? Now I don't recognise anybody So damn lonely It's a nightmare tryna be It's a nightmare tryna be nineteen [Outro] I don't know what to do with this Hanging on by my fingertips I bet they all think I'm a freak It's a nightmare tryna be It's a nightmare tryna be nineteen Everybody else got a plan I don't even know who I am Is there something wrong with me? It's a nightmare tryna be It's a nightmare tryna be nineteen