Nightmare Being 19

[Verse 1]

I got this crippling fear of being average in this perfect world

Like it's me versus all of these sexy and confident girls

I'm so awkward, embarrassing, everyone's on something

I'm such a loner in here

These bodies are paper thin, it makes me hate my skin

Wanna disappear

[Chorus]

I'm honestly scared right now

I feel like a child left out

On my own, being weird at the party

Everyone's kissing everybody

When is a politе time to leave?

Whеn did life escalate?

And when did my friends all change?

Now I don't recognise anybody

So damn lonely

It's a nightmare tryna be

It's a nightmare tryna be nineteen

[Verse 2]

Weird how I used to be happy dressed up as myself

Right now I'd pay to be just about anyone else

I'm red-faced and fumbling, the perfect mannequin

Model the thoughts of my peers

A copy and paste it girl, done tryna save the world

Just trying my best to fit in

[Chorus]

I'm honestly scared right now

I feel like a child left out

On my own being weird at the party

Everyone's kissing everybody

When is a polite time to leave?

When did life escalate?

And when did my friends all change?

Now I don't recognise anybody

So damn lonely

It's a nightmare tryna be

It's a nightmare tryna be nineteen

[Outro]

I don't know what to do with this

Hanging on by my fingertips

I bet they all think I'm a freak

It's a nightmare tryna be

It's a nightmare tryna be nineteen

Everybody else got a plan

I don't even know who I am

Is there something wrong with me?

It's a nightmare tryna be

It's a nightmare tryna be nineteen