selfish

[Verse] I get intrusive thoughts about cuttin' my fingers off I get confused and build machines to count the numbers I don't know why, somethin' 'bout some shit that happened long ago It's not important that you understand my struggle It used to happen all the time, now it happen double I miss when I could hide it, when the episode was subtle I stay inside, I'm a burden, I don't wanna scare you Probably drinkin' Bourbon when I'm fallin' in some parachute .45 on me I'm prepared and I ain't scared to shoot Shorty bein' strong but baby I ain't bein' fair to you Paranoid, keep the blinds closed, sick freak, I'm a side show Seen death with my eyes closed Take deep breaths, take deep breaths I'm sick of this weak stress Rather be thinkin' like "we next" I'm pre-conditioned, treat my failure like a reflex I feel that age on me, I feel that rage in me I put a lock around my heart and now that cage empty Don't tempt me, I might just teeter off Close my eyes and look away and let the heater talk So distraught, just a stupid bridge to move my feet across I cross so many, peep the fire back behind me Never focus what I'm doin cause I'm side-tracked Feel like I'm actin' in a movie, where's the climax? Manipulate the script so they never know I'm sick I'm sinkin' in this ship that I built out of bricks [Chorus] Everything that you could wanna be, you could be, all you gotta be, is selfish There's just different degrees, to this disease, fuck 'em, let 'em grieve, I'm selfish Everything that you could wanna be, you could be, all you gotta be, is selfish There's just different degrees, to this disease, fuck 'em, let 'em grieve, I'm selfish Everything that you could wanna be, you could be, all you gotta be, is selfish There's just different degrees, to this disease, fuck 'em, let 'em grieve, I'm selfish Everything that you could wanna be, you could be, all you gotta be, is selfish There's just different degrees, to this disease, fuck 'em, let 'em grieve, I'm selfish [Outro] There's no hope for Travis He's suffering We know we need to do it There's no hope for Travis He's suffering We know we need to do it