selfish

[Verse]

I get intrusive thoughts about cuttin' my fingers off

I get confused and build machines to count the numbers

I don't know why, somethin' 'bout some shit that happened long ago

It's not important that you understand my struggle

It used to happen all the time, now it happen double

I miss when I could hide it, when the episode was subtle

I stay inside, I'm a burden, I don't wanna scare you

Probably drinkin' Bourbon when I'm fallin' in some parachute

.45 on me I'm prepared and I ain't scared to shoot

Shorty bein' strong but baby I ain't bein' fair to you

Paranoid, keep the blinds closed, sick freak, I'm a side show

Seen death with my eyes closed

Take deep breaths, take deep breaths

I'm sick of this weak stress

Rather be thinkin' like "we next"

I'm pre-conditioned, treat my failure like a reflex

I feel that age on me, I feel that rage in me

I put a lock around my heart and now that cage empty

Don't tempt me, I might just teeter off

Close my eyes and look away and let the heater talk

So distraught, just a stupid bridge to move my feet across

I cross so many, peep the fire back behind me

Never focus what I'm doin cause I'm side-tracked

Feel like I'm actin' in a movie, where's the climax?

Manipulate the script so they never know I'm sick

I'm sinkin' in this ship that I built out of bricks

[Chorus]

Everything that you could wanna be, you could be, all you gotta be, is selfish

There's just different degrees, to this disease, fuck 'em, let 'em grieve, I'm selfish

Everything that you could wanna be, you could be, all you gotta be, is selfish

There's just different degrees, to this disease, fuck 'em, let 'em grieve, I'm selfish

Everything that you could wanna be, you could be, all you gotta be, is selfish

There's just different degrees, to this disease, fuck 'em, let 'em grieve, I'm selfish

Everything that you could wanna be, you could be, all you gotta be, is selfish

There's just different degrees, to this disease, fuck 'em, let 'em grieve, I'm selfish

[Outro]

There's no hope for Travis

He's suffering

We know we need to do it

There's no hope for Travis

He's suffering

We know we need to do it