Suicide Line Decline

All of my life, been floating in feelings of misplacement Always wondered why I was put on this planet to switch to the others 90% of the Time it ticks at least thats what we think Im the board game in the middle of the fruit section Not because some lazy kid put me here When his mother told him no cause the moneys gettin low But the owner was pullin round a cart of new stock Snakes & ladders all packaged bottom to top He took a short cut on the corner of the isle The game flew out into an unknown pile [and now Im here] [hey, hi, welcome] [ladies . . gentlemen . . anyone?] Why am i surrounded [do you hear me though? see me though?] [yeah i'm so alone . . with all these ghosts] Why am i surrounded [do you hear me though? see me though?] [yeah i'm so alone . . with all these ghosts] I quit my job Was supposed to be building but more destroying Layers of myself from morning . . yawning .. Till Im exhausted . . i got away And i know my dad is kinda disappointed Cause he had a similar dream with music Didn't pursue it . . he looks at me Like i am deluded . . slightly foolish Whilst i am telling my words about the universe .. He sighs and switches on the tv And puts his right ankle onto his left knee Looking around the corners of the room He thinking . . SNAP OUT OF IT BEXEY Why would i wanna be anything but me I would never make anyone ever feel that way So . . fuck the negativity . . simply i had to get out that place Now . . Im Far away in a ghost town Was suicidal for many months yea i lost count Well . . . . didn't but . . why would i try remember? When the only thing in my history Is : 'whats the easiest way out?' Rang a suicide line . . [WELL I TRIED] And that voicemail bitch said i have to top my phone up That was the biggest sign of my life Had to do it by myself with the intense focus FUCK THE SUICIDE LINE FUCK THE SUICIDE LINE MAKE YOUR OWN PLANET INSTEAD MY FRIEND FUCK THE SUICIDE LINE FUCK THE SUICIDE LINE FUCK THE SUICIDE LINE THEY DIDNT EVEN LET ME SPEAK BUT I THANK THE UNIVERSE THANK THE UNIVERSE THANK THE UNIVERSE SHES GOT ME ETERNALLY THATS RIGHT