Trying

Oh I can't get out Invisible handcuffs locked on me Been praying for my period all week And relief that I just can't see I question everything My focus, my figure, my sexuality And how much it matters or why it would mean anything I can't keep it together, I've been better I've been thinking about it every night I'm trying, I am I'm trying, I am Trying to hide from my mind, I am Trying all the time, I am Trying to hide from my mind, I am Trying, trying all of mine I can't get out There's no flawless education Just a stupid degree The feeling of growing so far from myself I can't reach, I can't reach, I can't reach So brush it off, 'cos I want it bad And there's no dusting up When you walk like that, here's a ship There's a wick that will keep yourself in check cause All these loaded questions gonna eat you alive I'm trying, I am I'm trying, I am Trying to hide from my mind, I am Trying all the time, I am Trying to hide from my mind, I am Trying, trying Why am I? If it counts for anything I didn't want to I'm just looking for clarity To help me to get through If you're set in your ways What can I do? Ease up So that I can break it down for you can't Feed a beast you Leave unleashed it'll Come right back to you I'm trying Trying to hide from my mind, I am Trying all the time, I am Trying to hide from my mind, I am Trying, trying Why am I? Why am i? Why am I? Why am I?