Stove Lighter

Kids from my highschool still ignore me when They see me busking in the city And i think they're going somewhere To take horse tranquilliser And act like they're too cool to be there And they'll still call me when they wanna get high. Those i look up to look down on me Or maybe it's just my crippling anxiety? Because it's been happening a lot lately I think it's got something to do with you But you make me pretty happy I'm just whining about the same shit as yesterday. And i would sneak him into my mothers house Where he would draw the things i'd talk about And we only ever made out And listen to tigers jaw and uv race Yeah it was pretty grouse But i gave him my old phone and he moved away. Now i read my text books like the bible There's something about truth that makes existence bearable We're sitting 'round the kitchen table It kinda feels like family but a little more unstable And we still have to light the stove with a lighter. It's kinda like i almost want you to understand This like the first time you were here It's kinda like i almost want you to understand me Like the first time we were here. And all this time it made sense to me why life was so unfair Because the universe don't know and the universe don't care It took years to figure out everyone else had shit on their mind And the darkness that lives inside of me Looks exactly like you sometimes. Still have to light the stove with a lighter. I'll sit alone in my bedroom, Hope they can't hear me in the next room Always alone in my bedroom hoping no one can hear me