Pale

As time moves on, I watch the color fade The life in my face dies with the choices that I make It seems I'll never get this right, so just fake it for tonight The same old "I'll be alright". The same fake "I said I'm fine" How can I have an ounce of confidence? How can I act like I'm proud? When I do the same things to myself, always cutting myself down I've given life my everything, but I still fell short And if tomorrow isn't coming my way, I won't lose sleep I am running and hiding from the thoughts of dying That always seem to follow me at night 'Cause if you live in the moment and not a second past You can lie to yourself about the things you'll never ask A thousand pages set to flame As I fall short, I'm the only one to blame See I'm starving for something I can't comprehend I can't hear anything over the noise of what's unsaid The sinking feeling inside my chest comes easier than a night of rest I'm losing color, fucking sick to my stomach The cold sweat is making itself at home again The poster child example of a lack of self control Destroying what's mine, just because it's beautiful