Pale

As time moves on, I watch the color fade

The life in my face dies with the choices that I make

It seems I'll never get this right, so just fake it for tonight

The same old "I'll be alright". The same fake "I said I'm fine"

How can I have an ounce of confidence? How can I act like I'm proud?

When I do the same things to myself, always cutting myself down

I've given life my everything, but I still fell short

And if tomorrow isn't coming my way, I won't lose sleep

I am running and hiding from the thoughts of dying

That always seem to follow me at night

'Cause if you live in the moment and not a second past

You can lie to yourself about the things you'll never ask

A thousand pages set to flame

As I fall short, I'm the only one to blame

See I'm starving for something I can't comprehend

I can't hear anything over the noise of what's unsaid

The sinking feeling inside my chest comes easier than a night of rest

I'm losing color, fucking sick to my stomach

The cold sweat is making itself at home again

The poster child example of a lack of self control

Destroying what's mine, just because it's beautiful