Pity Party

I woke up in a new bed today It's my own, I guess, but it doesn't feel that way I'm so tired of the jet lag, I thought it was a hoax This grown up shit is getting old And I miss my mom, she thinks I'm doing well She tells me that I'm better off by myself That I don't need anyone But really I'm scared of being lonely, my clothes are always dirty I can't get enough coffee, what can you do? There's dirt on my white shoes, I live in a living room And I'm so scared to call you But I'm throwing a party and no, it's not a pity party If you don't like it, just leave, I don't need your pity I just want a party And I know I seem like a lot right now Both my socks and my pride are nowhere to be found I guess this is just 20, I always feel like a joke And it gets worse or that's what I'm told Oh, I miss my friends, they pray I'm doing well Maybe one day I'll be better off by myself And I won't need anyone But for now (now) I'm scared of being lonely, my clothes are always dirty I can't get enough coffee, what can you do? There's dirt on my white shoes, I live in a living room And I'm so scared to call you But I'm throwing a party and no, it's not a pity party If you don't like it, just leave, I don't need your pity I just want a party Party, I just want a party I just want, just want (I just want, want) I just want a party I just want, just want I just want a party