[Part 1: Pain]
[Verse]
When LAMBETHNOTLA dropped, I went broke
Depressive episode, thought I'd put the mic down and never be the next to blow
Hate crept back in to my heart, I relapsed 'cause of these rebought acts that man are gassin' like Texaco
Life fell apart while the accolades rolled in
Paying council debts, watched all the vets phone in
The lyrics that inspired youts, I once admired you
Now you ain't shit but just a lost nigga roamin'
I wish that I could play the industry
Shuck and jive like I'm meant to be
Be a good soldier for the infantry, for Satan
But when I see rapists get sympathy, I realised I'd rather die today and live in infamy
'Cah niggas chat shit but that's after I'm gone
'Cah they fear me in the physical dome
And now I make subliminal songs
I cover canvases in blood and pray to Jesus, God above that He'll forgive me of wrongs
Please save, help me change my ways
Before I lose my way and put myself in the grave
[?] knows my [?], I say what I wanna say
"Jesus, free me from the grief" is all I pray
I know Christ forgives, I'm tryna learn the same
But when I hear their names, I'm bubblin' with rage
I thought I learned lessons from my troubled adolescence
But fuck the growth, I guess pain is still the essence
Remember hearing Rambo don't like my tunes as of late
And I should go back to the muse of the tape that I dropped about Lambeth
Ha, I had to laugh just understandin' that he don't know the half of the shit I'm withstandin'
I'm stood up on the strip like the IDF in Palestine, family dyin'
I live in debt, got stress upon my back and spine
Workin' 9-to-5 and never made a pound off rap
It's been the maddest time
In my shoes, you wouldn't make "I Had A Line"
[Part 2: The Essence]
[Intro]
When you hear the rhythm, start to move
[Verse]
I don't give a fuck 'bout likes and co-signs
Let's take it to '019
Weren't shit but a teen with lines and dreams where man put knives in spleens
Wait
Fuck top fives, fuck playlists
I fucked one time, I'm not waitin'
Fam, it's God time
So don't play with man, I'm online
It's calm if man don't like my flow, I trim the fat as in lipo
I rep my home, Lambeth my zone
Where man throw flags just like linos
My Dad white nose, got it from my man
I sip and think 'bout life fam
Am I meant to be gassed when all these label pricks wan' say they'll sign man?
'Cah when it was packs on go, wanted to shoot myself like Plaxico
And marjay had a stroke, ain't see none of these rats involved
Wait
Still wanna kill myself, I gotta do that straight to the game first
So when I decide to die in the grave, all us go in the same hearse
They sayin' my name and it ain't worth mentionin' but keep up
Man, I might end this ting wit' a heater, not no beater
Wait 'til I show man the tracklist features
Like parties, watch how I clean up
Linked up with-, oh I can't say that
'Cah I know they pree on the playback
Come like Jake that, you don't like me
What should I say back?
Cry? No
Pray and ask God why? No
Trust I ain't got the time, bro
I come with diamonds, man get vexed 'cah they used to all that rhinestones
Jesus guided my flow, the soul I feel in the air lately
The underground just ain't made no classics 'til I go and drop "Blair babies"
Dun know
Dun-
