Deserve It

[Verse 1: Chaos] Now I have fallen to the venom trying hard to love these women Once bitten twice shy, another try twice bitten I been looking for a wave I let them ride and then good riddance Cause I never got a high that wasn't lowered when it ended At first I never listened long enough to catch my interest Then i gave my all for nothing thats a gift that keeps on giving Turned my life into a living, promised i would share it with em Let em cuff me, went from feeling love is locked To being locked inside a prison Tryna find keys to my heart retrace my steps to the beginning I just want keys to your thoughts Then I'll unlock your real intentions Talking feelings till we feel em and the exes back to get me And I'm feeling like theses feelings only lasting for a minute Paid my dues she say I didn't fall in love and end up injured Said I'd write a song about it, couldn't talk it out we end it I've been restless tryna live through All these reckless bad decisions I can't really make em for you though don't worry though forget it [Chorus] See I came up I came up but ain't change up We change up and then break up We make up and then made love I hate love cause it's dangerous I can't love cause I can't trust I Fake love I got banged up She hang up in my face but Feels like I deserve it Feels like I deserve it I feel like I deserved it I probably deserved it Hoes would say we need a break, I plan vaca to Cartagena I've been told we needed space guess they really are from Venus They all Ed Gein at saving face I'm surprised I didn't see it Harvey Dent call it a threesome, half an angel half a demon Damn I'm feeling like this is a bad time Can we just wait like the last time Damn i really don't why you're mad I'm Really not kin to your bad side Ma'am I seen that your mood has been bad I'm Doing whatever to mask mine Can you stop tryna tell me you love me I'd rather you tell me that that's mine I feel you should probably relax I'm Still who you chill with for that right You lose some and fall and get back That's real in the end know that that's life You telling me things have been bad but Damn they were good in the past time Ticking I'm living to pass time Still i just feel I should ask why Damn am i worth it, better or worst You give in or give up whichever comes first Hoes looking for amen but never in church They waiting and waiting want better then search Good guys finish last, and i never was first Attachment was magnet to metal it worked Wanna act bet your action was better rehearsed I been heartless too long a breaks hella deserved Guess it gets better with words Lessons for better were learned This is a letter to her Wait for the message returned [Chorus] See I came up I came up but ain't change up We change up and then break up We make up and then made love I hate love cause it's dangerous I can't love cause I can't trust I Fake love I got banged up She hang up in my face but Feels like I deserve it Feels like I deserve it I feel like I deserved it I probably deserved it