Deserve It

[Verse 1: Chaos]

Now I have fallen to the venom trying hard to love these women

Once bitten twice shy, another try twice bitten

I been looking for a wave I let them ride and then good riddance

Cause I never got a high that wasn't lowered when it ended

At first I never listened long enough to catch my interest

Then i gave my all for nothing thats a gift that keeps on giving

Turned my life into a living, promised i would share it with em

Let em cuff me, went from feeling love is locked

To being locked inside a prison

Tryna find keys to my heart retrace my steps to the beginning

I just want keys to your thoughts

Then I'll unlock your real intentions

Talking feelings till we feel em and the exes back to get me

And I'm feeling like theses feelings only lasting for a minute

Paid my dues she say I didn't fall in love and end up injured

Said I'd write a song about it, couldn't talk it out we end it

I've been restless tryna live through

All these reckless bad decisions

I can't really make em for you though don't worry though forget it

[Chorus]

See I came up

I came up but ain't change up

We change up and then break up

We make up and then made love

I hate love cause it's dangerous

I can't love cause I can't trust

I Fake love I got banged up

She hang up in my face but

Feels like I deserve it

Feels like I deserve it

I feel like I deserved it

I probably deserved it

Hoes would say we need a break, I plan vaca to Cartagena

I've been told we needed space guess they really are from Venus

They all Ed Gein at saving face I'm surprised I didn't see it

Harvey Dent call it a threesome, half an angel half a demon

Damn I'm feeling like this is a bad time

Can we just wait like the last time

Damn i really don't why you're mad I'm

Really not kin to your bad side

Ma'am I seen that your mood has been bad I'm

Doing whatever to mask mine

Can you stop tryna tell me you love me

I'd rather you tell me that that's mine

I feel you should probably relax I'm

Still who you chill with for that right

You lose some and fall and get back

That's real in the end know that that's life

You telling me things have been bad but

Damn they were good in the past time

Ticking I'm living to pass time

Still i just feel I should ask why

Damn am i worth it, better or worst

You give in or give up whichever comes first

Hoes looking for amen but never in church

They waiting and waiting want better then search

Good guys finish last, and i never was first

Attachment was magnet to metal it worked

Wanna act bet your action was better rehearsed

I been heartless too long a breaks hella deserved

Guess it gets better with words

Lessons for better were learned

This is a letter to her

Wait for the message returned

[Chorus]

See I came up

I came up but ain't change up

We change up and then break up

We make up and then made love

I hate love cause it's dangerous

I can't love cause I can't trust

I Fake love I got banged up

She hang up in my face but

Feels like I deserve it

Feels like I deserve it

I feel like I deserved it

I probably deserved it