Sympathy is a knife

I don't wanna share this space I don't wanna force a smile This one girl taps my insecurities Don't know if it's real or if I'm spiraling One voice tells me that they laugh George says I'm just paranoid Says he just don't see it, he's so naive I'm embarrassed to have it, but need the sympathy 'Cause I couldn't even be her if I tried I'm opposite, I'm on the other side I feel all these feelings I can't control Oh no, don't know why All this sympathy is just a knife Why I can't even grit my teeth and lie? I feel all these feelings I can't control Oh no, don't know Why I wanna buy a gun? Why I wanna shoot myself? Volatile at war with my dialogue I'd say that there was a God if they could stop this Wild voice tearing me apart I'm so apprehensive now Don't wanna see her backstage at my boyfriend's show Fingers crossed behind my back, I hope they break up quick 'Cause I couldn't even be her if I tried I'm opposite, I'm on the other side I feel all these feelings I can't control Oh no, don't know why All this sympathy is just a knife Why I can't even grit my teeth and lie? I feel all these feelings I can't control (oh no) All this sympathy is just a knife All this sympathy is just a lie All this sympathy is just a knife Yeah, all this sympathy is just a lie Oh no, oh no Why is all this sympathy a fucking knife? Yeah, all this sympathy is just a lie Couldn't even be her if I tried Oh no, oh no