Gray

[Pre-Chorus] I’m so lost I don’t ever think I’ll be found I always feel like I’m trapped, always feel like I'm down It’s hard to swim in a world Where the homies is taught to drown It’s lonely upon these grounds Said I’m so lost I don’t ever think I’ll be found I always feel like I’m trapped, always feel like I'm down It’s hard to swim in a world Where the homies is taught to drown It’s lonely upon these grounds [Chorus] Everything feels gray Everything feels gray La da dee da Everything feels gray Everything feels gray La da dee da [Verse 1] Synthesis of cognitive distortion Hallucinogenic trauma filled my conscious, feel it forming The night before me forcing down the duesse was important To silencе the voice of demon who priеd itself through my cortex I felt the depression linin circuits of the motherboard Intrinsic to my purpose serving work under the Rutherfords Land of free man was build on backs by those who underscored The magic of the black man we was bred to move like Dumbledores Where I come from death is summoned by the rustic sword Conundrums of brother Either death or jail through humble war Hung before a crowd that bares complexion Of thunderstorm and niggas acting shocked when guns are formed Pressure on my head like I’m Atlas subjected to those Olympians Expression through my scripture is effortless like Corinthians The sentience of sentences forces words to leave the page Let phonetics of my epilogue be set to pave the way [Pre-Chorus: Chris Patrick & Alex Banin] I’m so lost I don’t ever think I’ll be found (I’m so lost) I always feel like I’m trapped, always feel like I'm down (Always feel like I’m down) It’s hard to swim in a world where the homies is taught to drown It’s lonely upon these grounds (It’s lonely upon these grounds) I’m so lost I don’t ever think I’ll be found (I’m so lost) I always feel like I’m trapped, always feel like I'm down (Always feel like I’m down) It’s hard to swim in a world where the homies is taught to drown It’s lonely upon these grounds (It’s lonely upon these grounds) [Chorus: Chris Patrick & Alex Banin] Everything feels gray Everything feels gray La da dee da Everything feels gray Everything feels gray La da dee da [Verse 2] Suppress the way you feel, don’t throw no fits nigga Fuck you crying for, you ain’t no bitch nigga That’s how they raising us sharks in the Mediterranean Ain’t realize the masculinity toxic to our behaviors We grew up thinking that expression was devoid Connections was destroyed Affection that our mothers gave was lessened for the boys That’s why depression was so often bound Raised to be like demons seen as weapons in the ultrasounds Deflections of relations led to isolation Tried my patience finding love to learned my mind was tainted The obsession over love was really lust 'Cause we was taught that fucking vixen was the only means of finding greatness Learning truth was so essential, Still not sentimental My mental processing the damage i inflicted Coping with the fact that i can’t stand on how I’m living Led to copping lots of shit off of these bands without prescription [Chorus: Chris Patrick & Alex Banin] I’m so lost I don’t ever think I’ll be found (I’m so lost) I always feel like I’m trapped, always feel like I'm down (Always feel like I’m down) It’s hard to swim in a world where the homies is taught to drown It’s lonely upon these grounds (It’s lonely upon these grounds) I’m so lost I don’t ever think I’ll be found (I’m so lost) I always feel like I’m trapped, always feel like I'm down (Always feel like I’m down) It’s hard to swim in a world where the homies is taught to drown It’s lonely upon these grounds (It’s lonely upon these grounds) [Chorus: Chris Patrick & Alex Banin] Everything feels gray Everything feels gray La da dee da Everything feels gray Everything feels gray La da dee da [Outro: Alex Banin] Gray, Gray I’m gray tonight Don’t want to relate but it’s so easy Half glass of wine Begging demons to go but you don’t want to leave me All gray sometimes It’s gray its fine All gray tonight