Gray

[Pre-Chorus]

I’m so lost I don’t ever think I’ll be found

I always feel like I’m trapped, always feel like I'm down

It’s hard to swim in a world

Where the homies is taught to drown

It’s lonely upon these grounds

Said I’m so lost I don’t ever think I’ll be found

I always feel like I’m trapped, always feel like I'm down

It’s hard to swim in a world

Where the homies is taught to drown

It’s lonely upon these grounds

[Chorus]

Everything feels gray

Everything feels gray

La da dee da

Everything feels gray

Everything feels gray

La da dee da

[Verse 1]

Synthesis of cognitive distortion

Hallucinogenic trauma filled my conscious, feel it forming

The night before me forcing down the duesse was important

To silencе the voice of demon who priеd itself through my cortex

I felt the depression linin circuits of the motherboard

Intrinsic to my purpose serving work under the Rutherfords

Land of free man was build on backs by those who underscored

The magic of the black man we was bred to move like Dumbledores

Where I come from death is summoned by the rustic sword Conundrums of brother

Either death or jail through humble war

Hung before a crowd that bares complexion

Of thunderstorm and niggas acting shocked when guns are formed

Pressure on my head like I’m Atlas subjected to those Olympians

Expression through my scripture is effortless like Corinthians

The sentience of sentences forces words to leave the page

Let phonetics of my epilogue be set to pave the way

[Pre-Chorus: Chris Patrick & Alex Banin]

I’m so lost I don’t ever think I’ll be found (I’m so lost)

I always feel like I’m trapped, always feel like I'm down (Always feel like I’m down)

It’s hard to swim in a world where the homies is taught to drown

It’s lonely upon these grounds (It’s lonely upon these grounds)

I’m so lost I don’t ever think I’ll be found (I’m so lost)

I always feel like I’m trapped, always feel like I'm down (Always feel like I’m down)

It’s hard to swim in a world where the homies is taught to drown

It’s lonely upon these grounds (It’s lonely upon these grounds)

[Chorus: Chris Patrick & Alex Banin]

Everything feels gray

Everything feels gray

La da dee da

Everything feels gray

Everything feels gray

La da dee da

[Verse 2]

Suppress the way you feel, don’t throw no fits nigga

Fuck you crying for, you ain’t no bitch nigga

That’s how they raising us sharks in the Mediterranean

Ain’t realize the masculinity toxic to our behaviors

We grew up thinking that expression was devoid

Connections was destroyed

Affection that our mothers gave was lessened for the boys

That’s why depression was so often bound

Raised to be like demons seen as weapons in the ultrasounds

Deflections of relations led to isolation

Tried my patience finding love to learned my mind was tainted

The obsession over love was really lust

'Cause we was taught that fucking vixen was the only means of finding greatness

Learning truth was so essential, Still not sentimental

My mental processing the damage i inflicted

Coping with the fact that i can’t stand on how I’m living

Led to copping lots of shit off of these bands without prescription

[Chorus: Chris Patrick & Alex Banin]

I’m so lost I don’t ever think I’ll be found (I’m so lost)

I always feel like I’m trapped, always feel like I'm down (Always feel like I’m down)

It’s hard to swim in a world where the homies is taught to drown

It’s lonely upon these grounds (It’s lonely upon these grounds)

I’m so lost I don’t ever think I’ll be found (I’m so lost)

I always feel like I’m trapped, always feel like I'm down (Always feel like I’m down)

It’s hard to swim in a world where the homies is taught to drown

It’s lonely upon these grounds (It’s lonely upon these grounds)

[Chorus: Chris Patrick & Alex Banin]

Everything feels gray

Everything feels gray

La da dee da

Everything feels gray

Everything feels gray

La da dee da

[Outro: Alex Banin]

Gray, Gray

I’m gray tonight

Don’t want to relate but it’s so easy

Half glass of wine

Begging demons to go but you don’t want to leave me

All gray sometimes

It’s gray its fine

All gray tonight