Scared

[Verse 1] I got a part of me broken I'm guarding myself from the scars I'm exposing Harder to feel I'm at peace with my heart in the open Harder to breathe through the sparks of weed But it's help when I harbor commotion As a Spartan I need to be hard as can be But it hurts to discard my emotions (To discard my emotions) Pressed for the bottle that caught the tears off me quietly Fear of sobriety, years of the tyranny Clear as a day with no thunder, here I am tryna be The calm before the storm, I'm constantly at war I stand for mе denying blame but nevеr learn to build Understandably while hiding pain, I never learn to heal With the phantom of my lies will haunt my brain until revealed And until my bed is made, I'll spend these days with waves of guilt From the pit of confinement I could see the spots of truth By just digging through my dirt you'll see a heap of toxic roots See the purity is gone and insecurity run loose With every issue that arises it's get buried in excuse inside my soul [Chorus] I pray my body don't turn cold Before I learn to face my problems I pray someday I gain control Take me as I am, I been flawed Hold my hand, don't let me fall I been scared for my whole life Scared, scared for my whole life Scared for my whole life Scared for my whole life Scared for my whole life Scared, scared for my whole life [Verse 2] Scared of commitment Scared that these women might destroy the inner wiring Of our future in this shared existence Scared of addiction Scared that my usage and abuses in my plight Could send me right back to my doomed position (Scared of decisions) Scared that the pressures that consumes me in the night Gon' push this knife end my truth this instant Scared of assistance Scared that me asking you for help gon' show my weaknesses While my pride gon' make me move against it I wear this mask out daily, I keep my feelings silent I scream to show my strength, I don't like being violent I hate that fact I'm hardened, can't even get emotional Don't try open up to me, I'm just gon' fucking ghost you Don't say you proud of me, that's just gon' jam me up If it start crying do that mean I'm still not man enough? And all this time, my pain rejected all the years Was just an effort to find greatness and acceptance amongst my peers In my soul [Chorus] I pray my body don't turn cold Before I learn to face my problems I pray someday I gain control Take me as I am, I been flawed Hold my hand, don't let me fall I been scared for my whole life Scared, scared for my whole life Scared for my whole life Scared for my whole life Scared for my whole life Scared, scared for my whole life