Doesn’t matter

I'm lingering on when they kiss Leaning towards this abyss And of lately the only people I can stare Are the unraveled ones with their hands laying bare But their hands are numb and empty Their dull silence soothes me Loud whispers in my back as if I couldn't hear Thought I left ghosts behind But they're just coming near It doesn't matter, does it If I know any exit If I believe in god And if god does exist If I believe in god And if god does exist Rage as a fabric, through and through Like that gaze used to do 'Cause those suicidal thoughts that are still in my head Gives her that awful side-smile when I lay in bed It doesn't matter, does it If I know any exit If I believe in god And if god does exist If I believe in god And if god does exist She's barely feeding, but she'll deny Ribbon-legged, she passes by Until she surrenders in the midst of the street And the guys simply stare but continue to eat It doesn't matter, does it If I know any exit If I believe in god And if god does exist If I believe in god And if god does exist It doesn't matter, does it If I know any exit If I believe in god And if god does exist If I believe in god And if god does exist And if I'm cast out 'Cause I wanted some more And if this guy dances too close to the shore And if I could just push this door chalked on the wall And if after the void there's somewhere else to fall Forget I said it I soliloquize It's stinging nettle Their hands on their thighs Run if you stole a shard of sunlight, yeah yeah Don't ever tell them, I've got your back, yeah yeah Choking to tears with shards of sunlight, yeah yeah Run if you stole a shard of sunlight, yeah yeah Run if you stole a shard of sunlight (Oh, run) Don't ever tell them, I've got your back (Save all you can) Choking to tears with shards of sunlight (You won't be found) Run if you stole a shard of sunlight (And never come back) It doesn't matter, does it (And never come back) If I know any exit (And never come back) If I believe in god (And never come back) And if god does exist If I believe in god And if god does exist (Save all) It doesn't matter, does it (And never come back) If I know any exit (Save all) If I believe in god And if god does exist If I believe in god And if god does exist