[Chorus: Connor Price & Chloe Sagum, Chloe Sagum]
Mask up my pain, gold back my tears
I’m going insane, nobody knows
All by myself, let the rain hit me
I’m going insane, nobody knows
[Verse 1: Connor Price]
I just woke up hoping this would be a better day
I just spent the morning trying to learn to meditate
Anything that could get back into a better state
But that ain’t working maybe I just need to get away
Nope, that ain’t it
No that’s not what I needed, swear I knew this before
So why do I keep on repeating, expecting different results
Like something going to change, I guess I did this to myself
I think I’m going insane, okay look
One side telling me to go all out, ther side telling me stop
One side telling me to focus on the work and the job
Other side keep telling me “nah”
Telling me I, need a second just to breathe
Need a minute just to rest
But part of me telling me I cannot do that
I’ll get all the sleep that I need when I’m dead
Feeling like I’m at the edge, tip-toeing on the ledge
Quit throwing in the towel
That’s not how I’m going out right now not yet
But I confess, I been upset
Every morning I been laying in bed
Scrolling through feeds, knowing it means
Nothing to me, I’m not my best so I
[Chorus: Connor Price & Chloe Sagum, Chloe Sagum]
Mask up my pain, hold back my tears
I’m going insane, nobody knows
All by myself, let the rain hit me
I’m going insane, nobody knows
[Verse 2: Connor Price]
Gonna be honest
The first verse to this song I wrote a couple nights ago
All alone in my bedroom I’m all cooped up, had the lights low
And I was gonna continue with the same theme for this verse 2
But I was too tired, it was getting late like curfew
So I slept there, woke early, got fresh air
Road trip to see the in-laws out in Las Vegas
I’ll finish writing when I get there
Got there and I went on my laptop so I could check on
That first verse that I laid down trying figure out where I left off
Started writing but I couldn’t do it
Something wasn’t feeling right (nah)
How can I be writing something dark
When everything around me looking bright (yeah)
Lotta love in this room here, lemme just paint a picture
Got my wife sitting on the couch right now
Laughing with her sister
That’s Chloe, I gotta lotta love for that girl there
And Christian, that’s her husband
Who feels like he’s a brother
And I miss them when I’m not here
Looking at them smiling sitting next to
Their 10 month old newborn, that’s Duke Bao my nephew
The joy that that boy brings so special
Really got me sitting here looking forward
To raising our own when we get to
In the next room, Maria cooking in the kitchen
Vietnamese dishes, got spring rolls
And Pho soup with the chicken
We sitting laughing, talking this and that and
Reminiscing back and forth, on the things thats happened
[Bridge: Connor Price]
I got moments when I’m low but
I just need a shift of perspective to let it go (let it go)
I got moments when I’m low but
I just gotta look around and see I’m not alone and so
[Chorus: Connor Price & Chloe Sagum, Chloe Sagum]
I won’t Mask up my pain, won’t hold back my tears
If I’m going insane, somebody knows
