I Am (I Was)

I was not bound - by any stretch of the mind I could not be found - there was nothing to find And then it occurred - (well it's a little late now) Just skin and bones - (what you've been harbouring inside) With nowhere to run - (we call a nervous breakdown) It was hidden in plain sight Right before you fully crumble So take this new lease on your life Yeah – we all fumble I read about truth – in philosophy But I did not feel – that it spoke to me I studied the gods (to feel a little bit closer) Read poetry (tongue tied it feels a little frozen) Yet the void remains (I keep looking over my shoulder) It's as big as can be (in spite of all of my devotion) Each day brings with it new life It all starts with one decision For each and all of your insights There will always be revision I was walking at night – I couldn't see But I never lost my sight – in darkness Im free So im wandering at night – my back turned to the light No reason to hide I breathe – and I exhale Father I am So lost Without you