Saint

I’m trynna figure out what all these recurring themes mean Why when I try and bring you up it brings up something in me I’m trynna figure out I’m trynna figure out what I’m trynna figure out what (do you even see me) I’m trynna figure out I’m trynna figure out what I’m trynna figure out I’m trynna figure out what that darkness means when it’s in your eyes (I’m trynna figure out) I don’t wanna be dramatic but it’s like one look (one look one look) One look and I could die ‘Cause I am like a sponge I soak it all up I am like a fire Burn the basement to the top I am rising up from the ashes But something in my mind brings me back into the ashes So I’m raising myself up now I’m living in my own god power I’m moving like a tidal wave I am on a mission to save So I’m raising myself up now I’m living in my own god power I’m moving like a tidal wave I am on a mission to save I know it’s not your fault But it feels like an attack These demons love to body jump They catch me when I’m tired They catch me when I’ve tried everything I know to try Do you believe me that I’m trying So many years spent longing for approval from these men The thoughts that I was never man enough to be respected open up the gates they’re flooding back in So many night spent crying trying Holding my hands together finish with an amen Like dear god sorry that I’m me Someone I don’t wanna be So I’m lying here crying Begging you to change me But I’m done with that now I’m done I’m out I’m out I’m out I’m never coming back My mum seems kind of sad Scared that I’ll end up in hell Don’t you see that’s where I’ve been Don’t you see that’s where we fell So I’m raising myself up now I’m living in my own god power I’m moving like a tidal wave I am on a mission to save So I’m raising myself up now I’m living in my own god power I’m moving like a tidal wave I am on a mission to save I wanna save me I wanna save you I wanna live true Save the world too Save the world too Save the world too Save the world too Save the world too Save the world too Save the world too Save the world too Save the world too Save the world too Save the world too Save the world too Save the world too Save the world too Save the world too Save the world too Save the world too Save the world too Save the world too