Saint

I’m trynna figure out what all these recurring themes mean

Why when I try and bring you up it brings up something in me

I’m trynna figure out

I’m trynna figure out what

I’m trynna figure out what (do you even see me)

I’m trynna figure out

I’m trynna figure out what

I’m trynna figure out

I’m trynna figure out what that darkness means when it’s in your eyes (I’m trynna figure out)

I don’t wanna be dramatic but it’s like one look (one look one look)

One look and I could die

‘Cause I am like a sponge

I soak it all up

I am like a fire

Burn the basement to the top

I am rising up from the ashes

But something in my mind brings me back into the ashes

So I’m raising myself up now

I’m living in my own god power

I’m moving like a tidal wave

I am on a mission to save

So I’m raising myself up now

I’m living in my own god power

I’m moving like a tidal wave

I am on a mission to save

I know it’s not your fault

But it feels like an attack

These demons love to body jump

They catch me when I’m tired

They catch me when I’ve tried everything I know to try

Do you believe me that I’m trying

So many years spent longing for approval from these men

The thoughts that I was never man enough to be respected open up the gates they’re flooding back in

So many night spent crying trying

Holding my hands together finish with an amen

Like dear god sorry that I’m me

Someone I don’t wanna be

So I’m lying here crying

Begging you to change me

But I’m done with that now

I’m done I’m out I’m out I’m out

I’m never coming back

My mum seems kind of sad

Scared that I’ll end up in hell

Don’t you see that’s where I’ve been

Don’t you see that’s where we fell

So I’m raising myself up now

I’m living in my own god power

I’m moving like a tidal wave

I am on a mission to save

So I’m raising myself up now

I’m living in my own god power

I’m moving like a tidal wave

I am on a mission to save

I wanna save me

I wanna save you

I wanna live true

Save the world too

Save the world too

Save the world too

Save the world too

Save the world too

Save the world too

Save the world too

Save the world too

Save the world too

Save the world too

Save the world too

Save the world too

Save the world too

Save the world too

Save the world too

Save the world too

Save the world too

Save the world too

Save the world too