reality

The thrill is in the chase, never in the capture I despise you New year, new me that's a fuckin' lie I got plenty things wrong with me, I'm always wasting time I want to change, wanna live my best life But always something in the way, and I act like I'm fine I'm so paranoid of the people who surround me You wanna tear me down, with a smile, do it proudly Some people care, some do it for their family But nothing normal in my life, I feel so profoundly You're such a shitty experiment My friends say that I'm perfectionist But in actual reality I'm critical as shit I don't know where to draw the line Yeah, am I good enough? Gotta change this I always had to numb myself, so I used to get wasted I look from angles, shouldn't see I'm chasing the truth, reality is all I need But I'm always confused, why do we lack empathy? Is it a coping mechanism? I'm hatin' everybody, not me Nothing's ever good enough, nothing ever changes No matter what I try, no matter the places Something always to blame, some people blame their faces Or they wanna fill the void, by tryna be famous I got opportunity, but living, it's a nightmare I'm an introvert, so my positions unfair I just wanna share my plans, but I hate false promises I don't wanna hurt the fans, so I have to acknowledge them I'm moving in silence, for you I'm fighting every day, for you I only try, for you Don't wanna die, for you My friends say that I'm perfectionist But in actual reality I'm critical as shit I don't know where to draw the line Yeah, am I good enough? Gotta change this I always had to numb myself, so I used to get wasted I look from angles, shouldn't see I'm chasing the truth, reality is all I need But I'm always confused, why do we lack empathy? Is it a coping mechanism? I'm hatin' everybody, not me Silent, silent, silent, for you I'm f-f-f-fightin' for you I try-try-try, for you Don't-don't-don't, don't wanna die Don't wanna, don't-don't wanna, for you