Dear Alcohol (Mega Remix)

[Intro: Dax] I keep drinkin' 'til I'm someone I don't recognize I got wasted [Verse 1: RVSHVD] Ain't gotta turn on the lights, I take a shot in the dark Going round after round to fill this hole in my heart And I got nowhere to go when it all falls down Got nowhere to run when it all runs out Drowning my sorrows with bottles Too intoxicated for me to take the high road Since the whiskey came, I done lost my way Lost myself in a drink [Chorus: Dax with ThaGreatWhite] I got wasted 'cause I didn't wanna deal with myself tonight My thoughts get drowned until I feel alright I keep drinkin' 'til I'm someone I don't recognize I got wasted [Verse 2: ThaGreatWhite] I can never evеr live without it The numbness and thе buzz that I get from it I can never fall asleep without having a sip So many troubles and so much pain, I can't deal with it [?] I keep on drinking, [?] Depression [?] I don't wanna deal with myself I got wasted [Chorus: Dax] I got wasted 'cause I didn't wanna deal with myself tonight My thoughts get drowned until I feel alright I keep drinkin' 'til I'm someone I don't recognize I got wasted [Verse 3: ERV ELLO] I'm passed out and it's like I'm in a war Life is passing while I'm wasted on the floor See I've been drowning in a life without no passion Coping with this drink and I know it's tragic I wanna feel real life I want some real kisses, feel the real touch Find a real Mrs. 'til the fog is gone With God as my witness, I'ma sober up I'ma sober up [Chorus: Dax with ERV ELLO, ERV ELLO, KC Makes Music] I got wasted 'cause I didn't wanna deal with myself tonight My thoughts get drowned until I feel alright (Oh-woah) I keep drinkin' 'til I'm someone I don't recognize (I'm five years sober, so this comes from a really raw place I hope this reaches someone that needs to here it, you're not alone) I got wasted [Verse 4: KC Makes Music] You ever look back to a certain time and try to reminisce And all you get is little flashes, a piece of the past And as each year pass, you start to realize that the only thing that last Is the bottom of a glass, and your friendship’s plastic? Oh, well, that shit happens But what about when you can't even make it through the day And your hands start shaking, your girlfriend left And your parents pray for your safety? Not just pray, but the type that would make even atheists feel like it's something to faith 'Cause maybe only God knows what it takes Maybe only I know how to break it But I can't 'cause I'm cased in the shell of a man right now I don't really wanna hear it Hurt the people that are dearest And it took my soul, that's why they call it Spirits [Chorus: Dax with KC Makes Music] I got wasted 'cause I didn't wanna deal with myself tonight My thoughts get drowned until I feel alright I keep drinkin' 'til I'm someone I don't recognize I got wasted [Verse 5: Phix] At fourteen, I had my first OJ and Vodka and thought I was so G But that quickly turned into popping these pills and mixing my drink with the codeine But then I OD'ed, should have listened when they told me Now when I drink, I get to sending you these messages just 'cause I'm lonely And it ain't 'cause I'm wasted, it’s because I'm lost I need you to call And I don't know no other way to take away the pain I'm 'bout to fall [Chorus: Dax with Phix, Mykesty] I got wasted 'cause I didn't wanna deal with myself tonight My thoughts get drowned until I feel alright I keep drinkin' 'til I'm someone I don't recognize (Yeah) I got wasted (Woah, ayy) [Verse 6: Mykesty] And I'm talking about the drink and the bottle Got a lot of people tryna kill me and my vibe too I ain't got a tattoo, but I wish I got two Soon as I get the money and the fame, what about you? And I'm taken by the drink and the liquor Tryna put my brain in the game, damn figure All I do is drink, and drink, and drink, and think Take like three, four, five in a day, ayy I got a lot of problems, family problems Relationship problems, all I gotta do is just solve 'em Everybody tryna get me all fucked up Tryna do no drugs, so I fill my cup With the Hennessey Prolly on top, lit me up like I'm Faraday Call me on phone when I'm far away Yeah, I'm running from my problems But I know one day I'ma solve 'em [Chorus: Dax] I got wasted 'cause I didn't wanna deal with myself tonight My thoughts get drowned until I feel alright I keep drinkin' 'til I'm someone I don't recognize I got wasted [Verse 7: Carly Pearl] It's a quick high, then a long low And you call me tryna come home But I can't be your only remedy Tryna save you is gonna kill me So write it down, put it in a song Hope you pour it out We’d all feel less alone Instead of getting wasted Waste your time making something real You can turn your waste to power Helping other people heal, yeah, ohh [Chorus: Dax, Carly Pearl, Ben Becker] I got wasted 'cause I didn't wanna deal with myself tonight (Yeah, mmm) My thoughts get drowned until I feel alright (Oh-oh, mmm) I keep drinkin' 'til I'm someone I don't recognize I got wasted [Verse 8: Ben Becker] I got wasted, shot, then I chased it Wanted a taste, now it's my night that I'm wasting It's been happening more and more Start with one and then I'm pouring four Now I'm stumbling through the corridor Crying out for anything except a level head I've been fighting all these demons, but the spirits put 'em right to bed I know they'll find me when I feel the hangover 'Cause they don't hate the man I am until he's sober [Chorus: Dax with Ben Becker, Ben Becker] I got wasted 'cause I didn't wanna deal with myself tonight (Oh) My thoughts get drowned until I feel alright I keep drinkin' 'til I'm someone I don't recognize I got wasted [Verse 9: Skydxddy] Just one more shot of whiskey then I'll put the bottle down The warmth that it provides me is the best that I have found And I know that it can't kill me 'cause I'm already dead And I would do anything to drown these thoughts inside my head I'm messed up, fucked up, and I only disappoint My mental health doesn't give me much a choice Drunk in the crowd, getting lost in all the noise If someone screams and no one hears, do they even have a voice? [Chorus: Dax with Trippz Michaud] I got wasted 'cause I didn't wanna deal with myself tonight My thoughts get drowned until I feel alright I keep drinkin' 'til I'm someone I don't recognize I got wasted [Verse 10: Trippz Michaud] I spent half my life drinkin' Other half overthinkin' Blame it on a disposition And a family full of addiction Some say it's already written I guess the first step is admittin' It's hard being sober and dealing with feelings But I ain't a quitter, I don't plan on quitting, yeah Half a bottle got me catching waves Bring the loud, we gon’ cross fade Used to buy into being an addict Until I learned another way I been finding my balance Letting go of my malice Here's a toast to the challenge, yeah [Chorus: Dax with Trippz Michaud] I got wasted 'cause I didn't wanna deal with myself tonight My thoughts get drowned until I feel alright I keep drinkin' 'til I'm someone I don't recognize I got wasted [Verse 11: Common Tribe] Since you've been gone, I've been sipping into my sorrows One last bottle, then tomorrow I'll be sober, but I I can’t escape this hole that I've been diggin' in All my demons fighting wars that I can't really win So I bite my tongue and hit the wall until I bleed Trapped in my thoughts until it's hard for me to breathe And I know it's hard for you to see, but this liquor's got a hold on me, so [Chorus: Dax with Common Tribe] I got wasted 'cause I didn't wanna deal with myself tonight My thoughts get drowned until I feel alright I keep drinkin' 'til I'm someone I don't recognize I got wasted [Verse 12: Kaveman Brown] Look, I'm at the bottom of the bottle again I be living through a life with a whole lot of sin And I know I got a problem, I don't try to pretend I be kicking it with Jack when I don't got a friend I get wasted Sippin' a beer, that's how I chase it Go to the store and cop cases When I get drunk, I do not pace it I done blacked out on many occasions Even though it never feels good on the next day I'ma still look forward to the next taste Turning to the bottle when I really need to escape Even thought I know it's probably leading to my death day It's a vicious cycle that is genocidal And it's taken friends and taken many idols And I know that I really must stop If I wanna see the day that I'm sittin' on top [Chorus: Dax] I got wasted 'cause I didn't wanna deal with myself tonight My thoughts get drowned until I feel alright I keep drinkin' 'til I'm someone I don't recognize I got wasted [Verse 13: Gringo Tha MC] Had to quit sippin' and get to the money I'd rather be rich than be numb to the pain Issues within me, I think no one love me You tell me it's only inside of my brain Lied to myself then I try to explain Drink to forget and get high to maintain If I quit for good and I try to refrain Then I gotta admit that I'm drowning in pain And I don't wanna face it Rather pour up and get wasted Straight 'cause I'm trying to taste it All of my problems would probably get better with time But I'd rather be drunk than be patient Why would I chase it? Love how it hit when I face it That bottle takes me to places I need to be when I'm deep in my feelings I feel like I'm trapped, so I sip to escape it, yeah [Chorus: Dax] I got wasted 'cause I didn't wanna deal with myself tonight My thoughts get drowned until I feel alright I keep drinkin' 'til I'm someone I don't recognize I got wasted [Verse 14: Quez] I told myself I would never ever drink like this again It's 5 o'clock on the dot, the liquors pulling me in I'm one more drink from blacking out, so I'ma try to pretend Like I'm not feeling a buzz, but damn, I'm wasted The only time I feel alive is when I'm lit as a bitch I said only one sip, but now I'm faded I wouldn't be in this position, always feeling like shit But when the alcohol hits, it feels amazing [Chorus: Dax with AK] I got wasted 'cause I didn't wanna deal with myself tonight My thoughts get drowned until I feel alright I keep drinkin' 'til I'm someone I don't recognize I got wasted [Verse 15: AK] Another bottle to the face The liquor numbs what I think Drowning in it, but nobody see it I'm invisible, I'm gonna sink down Used to it, I don't know who to call People care so they ain't viewed to have flaws Running from myself, but how can nobody see it? What if the world cut my lights out? Who would show up to my funeral? What would it mean if everyone's crying out? Praying that I'll be at peace in a place they can't see They'll know me as the quiet one But time spent on this Earth ain't true to what I wanted I wish it was all in my head, but— [Chorus: Dax] I got wasted 'cause I didn't wanna deal with myself tonight My thoughts get drowned until I feel alright I keep drinkin' 'til I'm someone I don't recognize I got wasted [Verse 16: Kingery] Kicking myself, got wasted again Up all night with Jack and Jim Tryna drown my thoughts running through my mind Sippin' heartbreak chase with moonshine Unholstered Glock laid on the table Day by day, closer to fatal This open Bible ain't saving me When it's covered all in this Hennessy But I pick myself back up Prayed to God no more liquor in my cup Hell and back, pull me out the flames Lord on my side, breaking these chains See, I never cared what people think Take my demons, pour 'em down the sink How I see things now, it ain't the same When I'm back on track, you gon' know my name [Chorus: Dax with Hailey Dayton] I got wasted 'cause I didn't wanna deal with myself tonight My thoughts get drowned until I feel alright I keep drinkin' 'til I'm someone I don't recognize I got wasted [Verse 17: Hailey Dayton] Can’t run, can’t hide, I do this every time Don't know where else to go, so I drown my pain and ease my pride Sitting on that bathroom floor way too many times Contemplating 'bout my life, 13 Reasons Why, oh, why (Why) did you have to leave? You were a part of me Now I drink to grieve the lame that’s deep inside of me Nothing left to do, but long for you So I bought a cigarette then I’ll take a shot for you [Chorus: Dax with TROY] I got wasted 'cause I didn't wanna deal with myself tonight My thoughts get drowned until I feel alright I keep drinkin' 'til I'm someone I don't recognize I got wasted (Oh) [Verse 18: TROY] Every time I look in the mirror, all I see, ohh There's somebody just wondering why they always leave, ooh Instead of dealing with it and feeling it I tell myself I don't need someone When it's all that I need Oh, deep down, I'm so lonely [Chorus: Dax with TROY] I got wasted 'cause I didn't wanna deal with myself tonight My thoughts get drowned until I feel alright I keep drinkin' 'til I'm someone I don't recognize I got wasted [Verse 19: The Outdividuals / Couchlock Studios] Another generation down like bleach to a family tree She's telling me to pour it out, stop drowning in fermented company I gotta flush this trauma, enrich my cells Stop this tainted sweat from trickling down I gotta toss away this ancient hell And keep it far away from my dear child [Chorus: Dax] I got wasted 'cause I didn't wanna deal with myself tonight My thoughts get drowned until I feel alright I keep drinkin' 'til I'm someone I don't recognize I got wasted [Verse 20: Landrose] Look, I think I lost my composure I think a lot when I'm sober I try to run away from my thoughts But I still let the bottle get closer So I drink every night 'til the mornin' I'm hoping the glass will provide me some closure And I don't want breakfast So I'll leave the apple and just take a shot on the go And a couple more 'cause I need that Told my whole family I'm a clean man So they could stop stressin' and worryin' 'bout me Even though I know that I relapsed And I'm tired of the lies now I need full support and I mean that So I'm gone now, see you all after rehab, 'cause [Chorus: Dax] I got wasted 'cause I didn't wanna deal with myself tonight My thoughts get drowned until I feel alright I keep drinkin' 'til I'm someone I don't recognize I got wasted [Verse 21: Brutha Rick] Got tired of thinking so I start drinking 'til I was fully loaded and bloated My words misquoted, I'm wasted and I know it Inebriation begets alleviation which causes deviation I'm pacin' with no patients, I'm 'bout to blow it But self-pity ain't pretty so I crack down I pick up another drink, put it back down Instead of drinkin' I'll be thinkin', I'm thinkin' over drinkin' I'm way too far to let down No I can't do this on my own So I come to you 'cause you I got alone [Chorus: Dax and Brutha Rick, Dax] I got wasted 'cause I didn't wanna deal with myself tonight My thoughts get drowned until I feel alright I keep drinkin' 'til I'm someone I don't recognize I got wasted [Verse 22: Elias Burbick] Ooh, I got wasted 'cause these feelings that I got hurt like hell tonight Got me caught up, can't stop thinking about a paradise I can't find it (No) And everybody around me seems to be survivin' But I, I can't forget the pain that I caused I try to follow my heart then I’m falling down I'm hanging out with all these bottles now, so [Chorus: Dax and Elias Burbick, Dax] I got wasted 'cause I didn't wanna deal with myself tonight My thoughts get drowned until I feel alright I keep drinkin' 'til I'm someone I don't recognize I got wasted [Verse 23: Xowie] I'll keep drinkin' 'til I can't find myself I'm way too wasted couldn't even find my way back home I couldn't find my way back home But I still can't find it, I'm drownin' in my thoughts It just keeps comin' back and I don't know if I will ever get away Oh, oh [Chorus: Dax] I got wasted 'cause I didn't wanna deal with myself tonight My thoughts get drowned until I feel alright I keep drinkin' 'til I'm someone I don't recognize I got wasted [Verse 24: JED] I've been drinkin', I've been thinkin' 'bout the past Whiskey on the rocks, don't know where to put my lovin' Got a mask on thinkin' 'bout the future 'bout to beg God Know that I be livin' so brash How to heal my pain even with the lack of focus This anxiety made me the coldest And not on purpose I'm an over-thinker when I'm hurtin' And when my depression surface All the bullet holes in my headspace Kill the ego and my view perfect No, I never wanna be burnin' Sippin', sippin' on this bourbon I be, I be learnin'. I'll be learnin' [Chorus: Dax] I got wasted 'cause I didn't wanna deal with myself tonight My thoughts get drowned until I feel alright I keep drinkin' 'til I'm someone I don't recognize I got wasted [Bridge: Muzi Mbuyane] Guitar Solo [Chorus: Dax] I got wasted 'cause I didn't wanna deal with myself tonight My thoughts get drowned until I feel alright I keep drinkin' 'til I'm someone I don't recognize I got wasted