Dear Alcohol (Mega Remix)

[Intro: Dax]

I keep drinkin' 'til I'm someone I don't recognize

I got wasted

[Verse 1: RVSHVD]

Ain't gotta turn on the lights, I take a shot in the dark

Going round after round to fill this hole in my heart

And I got nowhere to go when it all falls down

Got nowhere to run when it all runs out

Drowning my sorrows with bottles

Too intoxicated for me to take the high road

Since the whiskey came, I done lost my way

Lost myself in a drink

[Chorus: Dax with ThaGreatWhite]

I got wasted 'cause I didn't wanna deal with myself tonight

My thoughts get drowned until I feel alright

I keep drinkin' 'til I'm someone I don't recognize

I got wasted

[Verse 2: ThaGreatWhite]

I can never evеr live without it

The numbness and thе buzz that I get from it

I can never fall asleep without having a sip

So many troubles and so much pain, I can't deal with it

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I keep on drinking, [?]

Depression [?]

I don't wanna deal with myself

I got wasted

[Chorus: Dax]

I got wasted 'cause I didn't wanna deal with myself tonight

My thoughts get drowned until I feel alright

I keep drinkin' 'til I'm someone I don't recognize

I got wasted

[Verse 3: ERV ELLO]

I'm passed out and it's like I'm in a war

Life is passing while I'm wasted on the floor

See I've been drowning in a life without no passion

Coping with this drink and I know it's tragic

I wanna feel real life

I want some real kisses, feel the real touch

Find a real Mrs. 'til the fog is gone

With God as my witness, I'ma sober up

I'ma sober up

[Chorus: Dax with ERV ELLO, ERV ELLO, KC Makes Music]

I got wasted 'cause I didn't wanna deal with myself tonight

My thoughts get drowned until I feel alright (Oh-woah)

I keep drinkin' 'til I'm someone I don't recognize

(I'm five years sober, so this comes from a really raw place

I hope this reaches someone that needs to here it, you're not alone)

I got wasted

[Verse 4: KC Makes Music]

You ever look back to a certain time and try to reminisce

And all you get is little flashes, a piece of the past

And as each year pass, you start to realize that the only thing that last

Is the bottom of a glass, and your friendship’s plastic?

Oh, well, that shit happens

But what about when you can't even make it through the day

And your hands start shaking, your girlfriend left

And your parents pray for your safety?

Not just pray, but the type that would make even atheists feel like it's something to faith

'Cause maybe only God knows what it takes

Maybe only I know how to break it

But I can't 'cause I'm cased in the shell of a man right now

I don't really wanna hear it

Hurt the people that are dearest

And it took my soul, that's why they call it Spirits

[Chorus: Dax with KC Makes Music]

I got wasted 'cause I didn't wanna deal with myself tonight

My thoughts get drowned until I feel alright

I keep drinkin' 'til I'm someone I don't recognize

I got wasted

[Verse 5: Phix]

At fourteen, I had my first OJ and Vodka and thought I was so G

But that quickly turned into popping these pills and mixing my drink with the codeine

But then I OD'ed, should have listened when they told me

Now when I drink, I get to sending you these messages just 'cause I'm lonely

And it ain't 'cause I'm wasted, it’s because I'm lost

I need you to call

And I don't know no other way to take away the pain

I'm 'bout to fall

[Chorus: Dax with Phix, Mykesty]

I got wasted 'cause I didn't wanna deal with myself tonight

My thoughts get drowned until I feel alright

I keep drinkin' 'til I'm someone I don't recognize (Yeah)

I got wasted (Woah, ayy)

[Verse 6: Mykesty]

And I'm talking about the drink and the bottle

Got a lot of people tryna kill me and my vibe too

I ain't got a tattoo, but I wish I got two

Soon as I get the money and the fame, what about you?

And I'm taken by the drink and the liquor

Tryna put my brain in the game, damn figure

All I do is drink, and drink, and drink, and think

Take like three, four, five in a day, ayy

I got a lot of problems, family problems

Relationship problems, all I gotta do is just solve 'em

Everybody tryna get me all fucked up

Tryna do no drugs, so I fill my cup

With the Hennessey

Prolly on top, lit me up like I'm Faraday

Call me on phone when I'm far away

Yeah, I'm running from my problems

But I know one day I'ma solve 'em

[Chorus: Dax]

I got wasted 'cause I didn't wanna deal with myself tonight

My thoughts get drowned until I feel alright

I keep drinkin' 'til I'm someone I don't recognize

I got wasted

[Verse 7: Carly Pearl]

It's a quick high, then a long low

And you call me tryna come home

But I can't be your only remedy

Tryna save you is gonna kill me

So write it down, put it in a song

Hope you pour it out

We’d all feel less alone

Instead of getting wasted

Waste your time making something real

You can turn your waste to power

Helping other people heal, yeah, ohh

[Chorus: Dax, Carly Pearl, Ben Becker]

I got wasted 'cause I didn't wanna deal with myself tonight (Yeah, mmm)

My thoughts get drowned until I feel alright (Oh-oh, mmm)

I keep drinkin' 'til I'm someone I don't recognize

I got wasted

[Verse 8: Ben Becker]

I got wasted, shot, then I chased it

Wanted a taste, now it's my night that I'm wasting

It's been happening more and more

Start with one and then I'm pouring four

Now I'm stumbling through the corridor

Crying out for anything except a level head

I've been fighting all these demons, but the spirits put 'em right to bed

I know they'll find me when I feel the hangover

'Cause they don't hate the man I am until he's sober

[Chorus: Dax with Ben Becker, Ben Becker]

I got wasted 'cause I didn't wanna deal with myself tonight (Oh)

My thoughts get drowned until I feel alright

I keep drinkin' 'til I'm someone I don't recognize

I got wasted

[Verse 9: Skydxddy]

Just one more shot of whiskey then I'll put the bottle down

The warmth that it provides me is the best that I have found

And I know that it can't kill me 'cause I'm already dead

And I would do anything to drown these thoughts inside my head

I'm messed up, fucked up, and I only disappoint

My mental health doesn't give me much a choice

Drunk in the crowd, getting lost in all the noise

If someone screams and no one hears, do they even have a voice?

[Chorus: Dax with Trippz Michaud]

I got wasted 'cause I didn't wanna deal with myself tonight

My thoughts get drowned until I feel alright

I keep drinkin' 'til I'm someone I don't recognize

I got wasted

[Verse 10: Trippz Michaud]

I spent half my life drinkin'

Other half overthinkin'

Blame it on a disposition

And a family full of addiction

Some say it's already written

I guess the first step is admittin'

It's hard being sober and dealing with feelings

But I ain't a quitter, I don't plan on quitting, yeah

Half a bottle got me catching waves

Bring the loud, we gon’ cross fade

Used to buy into being an addict

Until I learned another way

I been finding my balance

Letting go of my malice

Here's a toast to the challenge, yeah

[Chorus: Dax with Trippz Michaud]

I got wasted 'cause I didn't wanna deal with myself tonight

My thoughts get drowned until I feel alright

I keep drinkin' 'til I'm someone I don't recognize

I got wasted

[Verse 11: Common Tribe]

Since you've been gone, I've been sipping into my sorrows

One last bottle, then tomorrow I'll be sober, but I

I can’t escape this hole that I've been diggin' in

All my demons fighting wars that I can't really win

So I bite my tongue and hit the wall until I bleed

Trapped in my thoughts until it's hard for me to breathe

And I know it's hard for you to see, but this liquor's got a hold on me, so

[Chorus: Dax with Common Tribe]

I got wasted 'cause I didn't wanna deal with myself tonight

My thoughts get drowned until I feel alright

I keep drinkin' 'til I'm someone I don't recognize

I got wasted

[Verse 12: Kaveman Brown]

Look, I'm at the bottom of the bottle again

I be living through a life with a whole lot of sin

And I know I got a problem, I don't try to pretend

I be kicking it with Jack when I don't got a friend

I get wasted

Sippin' a beer, that's how I chase it

Go to the store and cop cases

When I get drunk, I do not pace it

I done blacked out on many occasions

Even though it never feels good on the next day

I'ma still look forward to the next taste

Turning to the bottle when I really need to escape

Even thought I know it's probably leading to my death day

It's a vicious cycle that is genocidal

And it's taken friends and taken many idols

And I know that I really must stop

If I wanna see the day that I'm sittin' on top

[Chorus: Dax]

I got wasted 'cause I didn't wanna deal with myself tonight

My thoughts get drowned until I feel alright

I keep drinkin' 'til I'm someone I don't recognize

I got wasted

[Verse 13: Gringo Tha MC]

Had to quit sippin' and get to the money

I'd rather be rich than be numb to the pain

Issues within me, I think no one love me

You tell me it's only inside of my brain

Lied to myself then I try to explain

Drink to forget and get high to maintain

If I quit for good and I try to refrain

Then I gotta admit that I'm drowning in pain

And I don't wanna face it

Rather pour up and get wasted

Straight 'cause I'm trying to taste it

All of my problems would probably get better with time

But I'd rather be drunk than be patient

Why would I chase it?

Love how it hit when I face it

That bottle takes me to places

I need to be when I'm deep in my feelings

I feel like I'm trapped, so I sip to escape it, yeah

[Chorus: Dax]

I got wasted 'cause I didn't wanna deal with myself tonight

My thoughts get drowned until I feel alright

I keep drinkin' 'til I'm someone I don't recognize

I got wasted

[Verse 14: Quez]

I told myself I would never ever drink like this again

It's 5 o'clock on the dot, the liquors pulling me in

I'm one more drink from blacking out, so I'ma try to pretend

Like I'm not feeling a buzz, but damn, I'm wasted

The only time I feel alive is when I'm lit as a bitch

I said only one sip, but now I'm faded

I wouldn't be in this position, always feeling like shit

But when the alcohol hits, it feels amazing

[Chorus: Dax with AK]

I got wasted 'cause I didn't wanna deal with myself tonight

My thoughts get drowned until I feel alright

I keep drinkin' 'til I'm someone I don't recognize

I got wasted

[Verse 15: AK]

Another bottle to the face

The liquor numbs what I think

Drowning in it, but nobody see it

I'm invisible, I'm gonna sink down

Used to it, I don't know who to call

People care so they ain't viewed to have flaws

Running from myself, but how can nobody see it?

What if the world cut my lights out?

Who would show up to my funeral?

What would it mean if everyone's crying out?

Praying that I'll be at peace in a place they can't see

They'll know me as the quiet one

But time spent on this Earth ain't true to what I wanted

I wish it was all in my head, but—

[Chorus: Dax]

I got wasted 'cause I didn't wanna deal with myself tonight

My thoughts get drowned until I feel alright

I keep drinkin' 'til I'm someone I don't recognize

I got wasted

[Verse 16: Kingery]

Kicking myself, got wasted again

Up all night with Jack and Jim

Tryna drown my thoughts running through my mind

Sippin' heartbreak chase with moonshine

Unholstered Glock laid on the table

Day by day, closer to fatal

This open Bible ain't saving me

When it's covered all in this Hennessy

But I pick myself back up

Prayed to God no more liquor in my cup

Hell and back, pull me out the flames

Lord on my side, breaking these chains

See, I never cared what people think

Take my demons, pour 'em down the sink

How I see things now, it ain't the same

When I'm back on track, you gon' know my name

[Chorus: Dax with Hailey Dayton]

I got wasted 'cause I didn't wanna deal with myself tonight

My thoughts get drowned until I feel alright

I keep drinkin' 'til I'm someone I don't recognize

I got wasted

[Verse 17: Hailey Dayton]

Can’t run, can’t hide, I do this every time

Don't know where else to go, so I drown my pain and ease my pride

Sitting on that bathroom floor way too many times

Contemplating 'bout my life, 13 Reasons Why, oh, why

(Why) did you have to leave? You were a part of me

Now I drink to grieve the lame that’s deep inside of me

Nothing left to do, but long for you

So I bought a cigarette then I’ll take a shot for you

[Chorus: Dax with TROY]

I got wasted 'cause I didn't wanna deal with myself tonight

My thoughts get drowned until I feel alright

I keep drinkin' 'til I'm someone I don't recognize

I got wasted (Oh)

[Verse 18: TROY]

Every time I look in the mirror, all I see, ohh

There's somebody just wondering why they always leave, ooh

Instead of dealing with it and feeling it

I tell myself I don't need someone

When it's all that I need

Oh, deep down, I'm so lonely

[Chorus: Dax with TROY]

I got wasted 'cause I didn't wanna deal with myself tonight

My thoughts get drowned until I feel alright

I keep drinkin' 'til I'm someone I don't recognize

I got wasted

[Verse 19: The Outdividuals / Couchlock Studios]

Another generation down like bleach to a family tree

She's telling me to pour it out, stop drowning in fermented company

I gotta flush this trauma, enrich my cells

Stop this tainted sweat from trickling down

I gotta toss away this ancient hell

And keep it far away from my dear child

[Chorus: Dax]

I got wasted 'cause I didn't wanna deal with myself tonight

My thoughts get drowned until I feel alright

I keep drinkin' 'til I'm someone I don't recognize

I got wasted

[Verse 20: Landrose]

Look, I think I lost my composure

I think a lot when I'm sober

I try to run away from my thoughts

But I still let the bottle get closer

So I drink every night 'til the mornin'

I'm hoping the glass will provide me some closure

And I don't want breakfast

So I'll leave the apple and just take a shot on the go

And a couple more 'cause I need that

Told my whole family I'm a clean man

So they could stop stressin' and worryin' 'bout me

Even though I know that I relapsed

And I'm tired of the lies now

I need full support and I mean that

So I'm gone now, see you all after rehab, 'cause

[Chorus: Dax]

I got wasted 'cause I didn't wanna deal with myself tonight

My thoughts get drowned until I feel alright

I keep drinkin' 'til I'm someone I don't recognize

I got wasted

[Verse 21: Brutha Rick]

Got tired of thinking so I start drinking 'til I was fully loaded and bloated

My words misquoted, I'm wasted and I know it

Inebriation begets alleviation which causes deviation

I'm pacin' with no patients, I'm 'bout to blow it

But self-pity ain't pretty so I crack down

I pick up another drink, put it back down

Instead of drinkin' I'll be thinkin', I'm thinkin' over drinkin'

I'm way too far to let down

No I can't do this on my own

So I come to you 'cause you I got alone

[Chorus: Dax and Brutha Rick, Dax]

I got wasted 'cause I didn't wanna deal with myself tonight

My thoughts get drowned until I feel alright

I keep drinkin' 'til I'm someone I don't recognize

I got wasted

[Verse 22: Elias Burbick]

Ooh, I got wasted 'cause these feelings that I got hurt like hell tonight

Got me caught up, can't stop thinking about a paradise

I can't find it (No)

And everybody around me seems to be survivin'

But I, I can't forget the pain that I caused

I try to follow my heart then I’m falling down

I'm hanging out with all these bottles now, so

[Chorus: Dax and Elias Burbick, Dax]

I got wasted 'cause I didn't wanna deal with myself tonight

My thoughts get drowned until I feel alright

I keep drinkin' 'til I'm someone I don't recognize

I got wasted

[Verse 23: Xowie]

I'll keep drinkin' 'til I can't find myself

I'm way too wasted couldn't even find my way back home

I couldn't find my way back home

But I still can't find it, I'm drownin' in my thoughts

It just keeps comin' back and I don't know if I will ever get away

Oh, oh

[Chorus: Dax]

I got wasted 'cause I didn't wanna deal with myself tonight

My thoughts get drowned until I feel alright

I keep drinkin' 'til I'm someone I don't recognize

I got wasted

[Verse 24: JED]

I've been drinkin', I've been thinkin' 'bout the past

Whiskey on the rocks, don't know where to put my lovin'

Got a mask on thinkin' 'bout the future 'bout to beg God

Know that I be livin' so brash

How to heal my pain even with the lack of focus

This anxiety made me the coldest

And not on purpose

I'm an over-thinker when I'm hurtin'

And when my depression surface

All the bullet holes in my headspace

Kill the ego and my view perfect

No, I never wanna be burnin'

Sippin', sippin' on this bourbon

I be, I be learnin'. I'll be learnin'

[Chorus: Dax]

I got wasted 'cause I didn't wanna deal with myself tonight

My thoughts get drowned until I feel alright

I keep drinkin' 'til I'm someone I don't recognize

I got wasted

[Bridge: Muzi Mbuyane]

Guitar Solo

[Chorus: Dax]

I got wasted 'cause I didn't wanna deal with myself tonight

My thoughts get drowned until I feel alright

I keep drinkin' 'til I'm someone I don't recognize

I got wasted