Dark

I'll be gone like summer I'll be here like rain Far beyond my expertise where I'ma be that day When you're gone like sunburn Or you're here like rain Far beyond my expertise where I'ma be that day There was a movement in the sky this mornin' The clouds tore open and it started stormin' on me Lookin' at the roof in this broke apartment Watch in case the walls start closin' on me I used to have an old beat black guitar I used to sleep in all of these trashy cars I used to make the beat and spit the rap in the closet Before anybody cared who the rapper was And now my food got no taste and my room got no space And my head got so big, don't remember who you is, dawg Don't remember when it switched, but Yeah, it's dark out here You better believe it Yeah, it's dark I felt a hole in my soul this evening I thought it would be different after I left treatment I stood up to a demon, mama, you shoulda seen it Remember back when Alex had no front teeth? I do I remember most of it Back before I shed my shell, now I'm a ghost of it Remember back when it was the four of us like Ghostbusters? Remember that? I ain't even know a democrat from a lumberjack Now it's mostly politics Now I work on holidays, now I'm worth all kinda things Now kids pin me up in livin' rooms in they mama's place Man, I moved out my mama's place and then I bought my mom a place Then I replaced my mama with a white bitch from the Palisades Then after she broke up with me, I became who my mama hates I became my dad, I would break promises that I would make to my favorite people I'd cheat on my favorite bitch and then I would lie through my teeth You remember when Alex had no front teeth? I don't be remembering shit I don't have a good memory I mean I do, it's more like flashbacks Yeah That's what you have? Like flashes? Yeah, I have like a lot of- They're very like, brief flashes What about babyhood Got any babyhood shit in the back of your head? Like, I don't remember nothin' as a toddler Do you remember like- No? I figured as much, so you got my memory What's your earliest memory? Any? Um What house do you remember? What's your first house you remember? 'Cause I don't even remember I remember Well, I remember your first house-house, it was actually an apartment I remember