Chaos Again

I woke up in the waves in a daze as the tide rose Tried to swim away I'm afraid To fall back underneath The deepest depths where it crept with its eyes closed Left a secret hex on my head I'll never breathe again and I know It left me there for dead on my own, I'm cold Your memory befriended my ghost Just a delusion from an ending I wrote The chaos feels like home I saw your eyes wide open late last night The ocean floor felt fine I think it's by design I'm broken down inside Erosion cuts with time I know that I said I said there's a light that's up ahead You said you said if you follow it you're dead I said I said there's a light that's up ahead You said, you said if you follow it you're dead to me I swore I saw the coast I was close to the shoreline Tired and exposed in the cold It pulled me underneath And took me down just to drown for the fourth time Buried underground with your doubts I'll never leave again and I know It left me there to dig my own my grave, my home Your memory befriended my ghost Just a delusion from an ending I wrote The chaos feels like home I let this get inside my head I think it time and time again In every epilogue I've read Seems like they never find the end I saw your eyes wide open late last night The ocean floor felt fine I think it's by design I'm broken down inside Erosion cuts with time I know that I said I said there's a light that's up ahead You said you said if you follow it you're dead I said I said there's a light that's up ahead You said, you said if you follow it you're dead to me If you follow it you're dead You said I can see you down there Heard your voice in my head Drowned slow but you never found where I saw your eyes wide open late last night The ocean floor felt fine I think it's by design I'm broken down inside Erosion cuts with time I know that I said I said there's a light that's up ahead You said you said if you follow it you're dead I said I said there's a light that's up ahead You said, you said if you follow it you're dead to me If you follow it you're dead You said I can see you down there Heard your voice in my head Drown slow the chaos feels like home