[Verse 1: Ekoh]
Feel that I should probably go back home
Probably got a few calls I should make right now and say
I'm sorry, I never meant for this
But I've been struggling this whole year trying to fit, it's like
We just try to be happy and time goes
Trying to navigate through these highs and lows
But I've been through some real shit and it shows
From the drinks to the drugs to the love to the vote and
I don't really know what happened to life
But I been feeling like it all isn't treating me right
And it's another holiday, yeah here we go
And I'll be nice to these people that I really don't know, but
The whole time I'm like
You probably voted for Trump, you're probably gonna hold this goddamned line up and
I'm just trying to get this coffee and bounce
Star Wars Rogue One it's in the theaters right now
Ay, and I just wanna see Vader
Had a year full of haters
Man, see I'm on one now and I'm just sick of the games and all the bullshit coming from these kids up on the internet
Like I don't really get it, feeling like it's in again
Man how fucking stupid can these people up on twitter get
Everybody talking 'bout how you hate these Kardashians, made another one famous
How the hell can I at least try to be happy when the whole world is falling apart
Now I have to see these goddamn girls up on Instagram with their tits out like, "Yo, chasing dreams fam!!"
So jaded
All my friends out getting faded
And I can't blame 'em, man
I don't know if it's me but I've never felt so lost at Christmas time
[Chorus: Kat Kalling]
My mind is rather frightful
Oh and I've been feeling spiteful
I'm building myself up tall
Just to fall, just to fall, just to fall
I'm looking for love and likes
I get my social media hype
I've got a void to fill
Will I ever, I ever feel real?
[Verse 2: Ekoh]
Can we stop this? Man, we lost Prince
We still talk about this Kanye West shit
And everybody's still pissed about these Starbucks cups
I can barely pay my rent this month, man
Tryna love never felt more divided
And I don't even have the feeling that I get when I'm writing
I'm fighting off all the depression that I get in all the later months
And all I want for Christmas to be able to shake it off
Oh girl please, what you want now?
Relationship for the holidays 'cause you're lonely?
Side to side if I'm getting the odds
I want an Ariana Grande and Nicki Minaj
And I'll be sneaking from the roof down the chimney slide
And I'll be underneath the tree with my dick in a box, yeah
Probably never get that radio play, but that's all right man I'm the one to blame
Oh, maybe things really get that bad
In fact car still runs and I'm pushing the gas
The last songs I put out got people going bananas
And I'm tryna get those people to believe in me like Santa Claus
Tryna get along, everybody getting it wrong
Feeling disconnected like Macaulay Culkin and his mom
Where's that Christmas spirit, kid?
I guess my heart's four times too small and shit, right?
Aye, yeah please believe
It's getting more lit than a Christmas tree
And I wanna be the man that I need to be
But I'm getting so sick of being me, so
Aye, gotta go back home
I gotta few calls I I'mma make right now and say I'm sorry
I never meant for this, but I lost the idea of what Christmas is
[Chorus: Kat Kalling]
My mind is rather frightful
Oh and I've been feeling spiteful
I'm building myself up tall
Just to fall, just to fall, just to fall
I'm looking for love and likes
I get my social media hype
I've got a void to fill
Will I ever, I ever feel real?
