[Chorus]
I know you can't hear my words but you will eventually
And when you do I pray you don't hold this shit against me
Hope you know I love you more than life itself
And these are just my thoughts cuz I been feeling empty
[Verse 1]
Everything ain't always what it seem like on the outside
I fought so many tears so that you'd never see the outcry
Cuz you so blind in love I don't want you to see my downsides
So focused on the details you can't see the outline
Can't confess this to you for the sake of my pride
Say Im still important but Im feeling downsized
You moved on quick thats what I heard along the pipe line
Went from my crib to his you traveling the pipe line
Stayed near you instead of a cheap home down in the south side
Now Im just a shadow to a dude to whom he outshines
Was this our full potential or am I a bonsai
Hella low when Im at home thats called my downtime
Outdoors on the floor on my back I lie I
Can't do nothin but sit here and watch the magpies
Spread their ocean colored bridges as they fly high
Fly into the stars man I wish I was that high
Need another pair of glasses for my mind's eye
Now Im a big fucking mess just like a tie dye
Feels weird to not have you to share the wifi
Suffer silent saying nothing like a wise guy
Pools of honey thats what I would call your brown eyes
You'd come over sad as hell, we'd talk about life
Hallow hearts because you used to occupy mine
How could you forget those times and how I...mxm
Thought I was cool but I can't help but ramble on
But as your friend you're happy so I act along
Breaking down at work Eric come back c'mon
Sobbing as I cook man all my passions gone
Christmas day we got a room and had a spa
Rub you with oil, watch a movie, it was bomb
Dropped a hundred just on food we got it on
Now I'm wandering the city as I sing this song
[Chorus]
I know you can't hear my words but you will eventually
And when you do I pray you don't hold this shit against me
Hope you know I love you more than life itself
And these are just my thoughts cuz I been feeling empty
[Verse 2]
Maybe I was just a tool to make you happy
To carry your depression til I started cracking
Was I just a pick me up when you were feeling crappy?
Nah I don't believe that that's why you got at me
Im just thinking bout conspiracies because Im hurt
And I can't text these women back or chase some skirts
We ain't so close anymore and ain't nothin worse
I did no wrong but still you left dawg whats my worth
Its been fucking hard for me to try to change
Take my anger out on people who don't know my pain
God why the fuck can you never give me one good day
Yo when the hell is it my turn to feel ok
You were a woman that I dreamt of but my dream just died
Woulda hurt less if you shot me right between the eyes
I won't imply that since then I wanna kill myself
But for guys like me theres no such thing as help
You cut me deep but heartbreaks never get no stitches
Maybe Id be cool if I heard back from these bitches
But he ain't me I worshipped you like a religion
But when you happy and Im lonely that shit hits real different
Francis can we kick it?
Melissa yo let's kick it
Josh when can we kick it?
Why can't nobody kick it? (sniffle)
But fuck what else is different
[Chorus]
I know you can't hear my words but you will eventually
And when you do I pray you don't hold this shit against me
Hope you know I love you more than life itself
And these are just my thoughts cuz I been feeling empty
[Verse 3]
Everything ain't always what it seem like on the outside
I fought so many tears so that you'd never see the outcry
Now you seem so distant like we in apartheid
Still have video of you but I can't stand the soundbites
I just keep my distance so that you could live in peace
Give you the happiness that God won't give to me
You almost cried apologized for what you did to me
But you were always great to me although you disagree
And no one's ever made me cry as much as you I swear
And when I'm alone with just my thoughts I have some cruel ideas
But thanks for still loving me despite the dude I am
I know there's way better friends and boyfriends for you out there
Got anxiety now only eat every few days
Small price to pay to know that now you feel okay
I blew the best relationship I ever had
And Id give it all for a chance at a second chance
[Chorus]
I know you can't hear my words but you will eventually
And when you do I pray you don't hold this shit against me
Hope you know I still love you more than life itself
And these are just my thoughts cuz now my soul is empty
