Nervous & Weird

You know I want to be the way you want me to Big hearted and tall enough to cover you I would break in half if you said it out loud Splinter out of myself just like mercury I think it's better now than how it used to be You were lying in bed and I would levitate I think it's better here than where we used to be I wish I could go out into the Oregon sun To be alive in the day I'd smile at everyone I remember you back in '83 You were dressing insane, you were my everything You were so different from all those other girls A blind Electra in drag, so cool and casually lame I think I'm better now than how I used to be Always nervous and weird, scared most of the time Think it's better now than how it used to be Always up in the night afraid to live in the day Afraid of being afraid Afraid to live in the day Afraid of being afraid Now I sit alone when you're not around I read aloud just to hear a friendly voice I see you scary dolls, they always look at me From the corner of my eyes, I see them shake their heads You know I want to be the way you want me to Big hearted and tall enough to cover you You know I want to be the way you want me to I wish I could go out just to be alive in the day To be alive in the day Hey, just be alive in the day To be alive in the day