Nervous & Weird

You know I want to be the way you want me to
Big hearted and tall enough to cover you
I would break in half if you said it out loud
Splinter out of myself just like mercury

I think it's better now than how it used to be
You were lying in bed and I would levitate
I think it's better here than where we used to be
I wish I could go out into the Oregon sun

To be alive in the day
I'd smile at everyone

I remember you back in '83
You were dressing insane, you were my everything
You were so different from all those other girls
A blind Electra in drag, so cool and casually lame

I think I'm better now than how I used to be
Always nervous and weird, scared most of the time
Think it's better now than how it used to be
Always up in the night afraid to live in the day

Afraid of being afraid
Afraid to live in the day
Afraid of being afraid

Now I sit alone when you're not around
I read aloud just to hear a friendly voice
I see you scary dolls, they always look at me
From the corner of my eyes, I see them shake their heads

You know I want to be the way you want me to
Big hearted and tall enough to cover you
You know I want to be the way you want me to
I wish I could go out just to be alive in the day

To be alive in the day
Hey, just be alive in the day
To be alive in the day