Deep Routed

[Verse 1] Something's stopping me Something's shutting my mouth Every time you say things first I say them back but it doesn't count Deep routed But I don't remember why Your hand on my lap made me shake And on the train home I cried [Chorus] If it's what I dream I want Why can't I let myself have it? If it's what I dream I need Why can't I let myself feel it? If it's what I dream I want Why can't I let myself like it? If it's what I dream I need Why am I so scared to keep it? [Verse 2] You asked if your hands were cold I didn't notice 'til you pointed it out I felt my brain turn and fold And then it was all I could think about I like your skin Just not on mine If I can't let you in Am I wasting both of our time? [Chorus] If it's what I dream I want Why can't I lеt myself have it? If it's what I dream I need Why can't I lеt myself feel it? If it's what I dream I want Why can't I let myself like it? If it's what I dream I need Why am I so scared to keep it? [Bridge] I'm only numb to the touch That's not meant to cause pain I don't recognize the feeling So it just goes away Am I scared of you? Or am I scared that I'm not? I'm lonely when you're here I'm lonely a lot Can't tell if I'm killing time Or if this time is killing me Convincing myself you're lying And you hate me really Is this how it is? Is this who I am? Guilty from a kiss Rejecting your hand It's always the same Why can't I change? Why can't I change? Why can't I change? [Chorus] If it's what I dream I want Why can't I let myself have it? If it's what I dream I need Why can't I let myself feel it? If it's what I dream I want Why can't I let myself like it? If it's what I dream I need Why am I so scared to keep it? [Outro] If it's what I dream I want If it's what I dream I need If it's what I dream I want If it's what I dream I need