Deep Routed

[Verse 1]

Something's stopping me

Something's shutting my mouth

Every time you say things first

I say them back but it doesn't count

Deep routed

But I don't remember why

Your hand on my lap made me shake

And on the train home I cried

[Chorus]

If it's what I dream I want

Why can't I let myself have it?

If it's what I dream I need

Why can't I let myself feel it?

If it's what I dream I want

Why can't I let myself like it?

If it's what I dream I need

Why am I so scared to keep it?

[Verse 2]

You asked if your hands were cold

I didn't notice 'til you pointed it out

I felt my brain turn and fold

And then it was all I could think about

I like your skin

Just not on mine

If I can't let you in

Am I wasting both of our time?

[Chorus]

If it's what I dream I want

Why can't I lеt myself have it?

If it's what I dream I need

Why can't I lеt myself feel it?

If it's what I dream I want

Why can't I let myself like it?

If it's what I dream I need

Why am I so scared to keep it?

[Bridge]

I'm only numb to the touch

That's not meant to cause pain

I don't recognize the feeling

So it just goes away

Am I scared of you?

Or am I scared that I'm not?

I'm lonely when you're here

I'm lonely a lot

Can't tell if I'm killing time

Or if this time is killing me

Convincing myself you're lying

And you hate me really

Is this how it is?

Is this who I am?

Guilty from a kiss

Rejecting your hand

It's always the same

Why can't I change?

Why can't I change?

Why can't I change?

[Chorus]

If it's what I dream I want

Why can't I let myself have it?

If it's what I dream I need

Why can't I let myself feel it?

If it's what I dream I want

Why can't I let myself like it?

If it's what I dream I need

Why am I so scared to keep it?

[Outro]

If it's what I dream I want

If it's what I dream I need

If it's what I dream I want

If it's what I dream I need