To Live a Life

I wrote you a letter To make myself feel better To redeem some part of me I thought I had lost And we were a lost cause Long before we fell apart 'Cause honey, I was too eager And you were too smart And I look for you In this empty room You're a phone call away I'm on the inner state And I've been drinking cheap wine Just to pass the time I'm falling behind And it doesn't matter Who you are to me I'm just like my mother We both love to run Chasing impossible things Or unreachable dreams Lie awake in the night Thinking this can't be right But there is no other way To live a life alone I'm alone now Then suddenly we wake from this dream that we have made It beats all at once and then It slowly fades I'm raising in To nothing I It all falls away I know it now For my own sake That I cannot stay