To Live a Life

I wrote you a letter
To make myself feel better
To redeem some part of me
I thought I had lost
And we were a lost cause
Long before we fell apart
'Cause honey, I was too eager
And you were too smart
And I look for you
In this empty room
You're a phone call away
I'm on the inner state
And I've been drinking cheap wine
Just to pass the time
I'm falling behind
And it doesn't matter
Who you are to me
I'm just like my mother
We both love to run
Chasing impossible things
Or unreachable dreams
Lie awake in the night
Thinking this can't be right
But there is no other way
To live a life alone
I'm alone now
Then suddenly we wake from this dream that we have made
It beats all at once and then
It slowly fades
I'm raising in
To nothing I
It all falls away
I know it now
For my own sake
That I cannot stay