Mouth Full of Dirt

Tipping the scales in the wrong direction Biting my tongue until it bleeds You saw the panic washing over my face And now you're watching me rinse and repeat I want you to stay But I don't want to be here It's time for a break But the timing is not that great for me Always expecting the worst I'm pleading my case with a mouth full of dirt I'm hoping to bury you with every word That's left unspoken I want to feel something, anything I want to feel something, anything I want to feel something, anything And I don't need to self medicate I'm already numb The television doesn't hold my attention It only keeps me from falling asleep The emptiness is filling up the space Is this reality or is it a dream? I wanted to stay But you don't want to be here Am I too late Or am I where I'm supposed to be? Always expecting the worst I'm pleading my case with a mouth full of dirt I'm hoping to bury you with every word That's left unspoken I want to feel something, anything I want to feel something, anything I want to feel something, anything And I don't need to self medicate I'm already numb Stimulate me Before the void annihilates me (I want to feel something, anything) I want to feel something, anything I want to feel something, anything I want to feel something, anything And I don't need to self medicate Gotta feel something Feel everything Gotta feel something And I don't need to self medicate I'm already numb