That Choice

(Ahe-hem) ('Kay) Just dropped in from the day dream Y'know I always gotta cause a big scene Gotta make everything about me I've been like this since I was like 13 So lemme bend your ears while I got them What is it you're really tryna run from? I guess that's the thing about problems While you ignore them then you ain't got none Oh, what a wonderful way to live Cold, magnifying the things I did I know something has got to give I wait for the veil to lift And, oh I'm feeling that choice in the way I'm feeding that void every day I'm screaming your voice in my brain It's more than I can take and Oh I'm feeling that choice in the way A little blockade in my brain Whatever comes next I pray It isn't more than I can take, yeah Always late to the party So everybody might look upon me Show 'em something better than I might be Force feed a narative, sell them what they wanna see Wait Maybe that's the way I put the walls up No one ever gets to get a close up That's the way illusions get bust up Life's been a breeze so long as I kept the front up Hey, don't make me reflect on things Avoiding it all is an easy win No way can the loneliness settle in It's my choice to pretend to be king And, oh I'm feeling that choice in the way I'm feeding that void every day I'm screaming your voice in my brain It's more than I can take and Oh I'm feeling that choice in the way A little blockade in my brain Whatever comes next I pray It isn't more than I can take, yeah The person inside underwhelms me So I pretend I'm something else entirely A person who's better than me at everything Rather you'd know that other guy instead of me It's funny how it took so long to realise I thought I was alone in tryna live lies Maybe everyone's a person being hid behind Would we all be so alone if we empathised? Woah, a depressing epiphany I know you so far as you'd let me see We're both different people way underneath What happens when those people meet? I don't know I'm feeling that choice in the way I'm feeding that void every day I'm screaming your voice in my brain It's more than I can take and Oh I'm feeling that choice in the way That little blockade in my brain Whatever comes next I pray It isn't more than I can take, yeah! No! Yeah! Oh! Oooh! Yeah!