That Choice

(Ahe-hem)
('Kay)

Just dropped in from the day dream
Y'know I always gotta cause a big scene
Gotta make everything about me
I've been like this since I was like 13

So lemme bend your ears while I got them
What is it you're really tryna run from?
I guess that's the thing about problems
While you ignore them then you ain't got none

Oh, what a wonderful way to live
Cold, magnifying the things I did
I know something has got to give
I wait for the veil to lift

And, oh
I'm feeling that choice in the way
I'm feeding that void every day
I'm screaming your voice in my brain
It's more than I can take and

Oh
I'm feeling that choice in the way
A little blockade in my brain
Whatever comes next I pray
It isn't more than I can take, yeah

Always late to the party
So everybody might look upon me
Show 'em something better than I might be
Force feed a narative, sell them what they wanna see

Wait
Maybe that's the way I put the walls up
No one ever gets to get a close up
That's the way illusions get bust up
Life's been a breeze so long as I kept the front up

Hey, don't make me reflect on things
Avoiding it all is an easy win
No way can the loneliness settle in
It's my choice to pretend to be king

And, oh
I'm feeling that choice in the way
I'm feeding that void every day
I'm screaming your voice in my brain
It's more than I can take and

Oh
I'm feeling that choice in the way
A little blockade in my brain
Whatever comes next I pray
It isn't more than I can take, yeah

The person inside underwhelms me
So I pretend I'm something else entirely
A person who's better than me at everything
Rather you'd know that other guy instead of me

It's funny how it took so long to realise
I thought I was alone in tryna live lies
Maybe everyone's a person being hid behind
Would we all be so alone if we empathised?

Woah, a depressing epiphany
I know you so far as you'd let me see
We're both different people way underneath
What happens when those people meet?

I don't know
I'm feeling that choice in the way
I'm feeding that void every day
I'm screaming your voice in my brain
It's more than I can take and

Oh
I'm feeling that choice in the way
That little blockade in my brain
Whatever comes next I pray
It isn't more than I can take, yeah!

No!
Yeah!
Oh!
Oooh!
Yeah!