Down & Out

Sleepless in bed I've never been so restless Body feels like lead And I can't try To lift my sheets, my strength has all faded Like leaves left to the wind when they fall down They float away and decay on unknown ground And I feel like a candle left to melt And soon becomes a mess of wax upon the shelf I feel that I'll peel back The sheets someday and show my face in the crowd Until then I'll just stay down and out I swear that this wasn't The way that things were ever meant to go down I'm scared that the wicks burned down and out I wait and Procrastinate existence Yeah that's an understatement So I just try to sedate myself it helps When everything you say is so profound To try to motivate a brain dumbed down By gaining no ground Translation so drowned out And I don't want to be a candle left to melt It's true I'm trying everyday to love myself But I still have trouble with self-maintenance At times I never wanna see my face again And I can see I still need help I still need help I feel that I'll peel back The sheets someday and show my face in the crowd Until then let's just say I'm down and out I swear that I'm working To not be scared my candle's wick is burned out To say that I'm worth it and sound it out