Smokes, Let's Go

Had my first smoke in 4 years today I wasn't thinking about my voice Or the things that my poor mother would say if she found out that I made this choice I was thinking about your face And the look of disappointment That you would surely cast my way if you caught wind of the sails I've hoisted I float away, path curling like the smoke off my tongue Still hurt, emotions closed tight like my lungs Know I said I'd never write about you again But a promise ain't a promise if we both have never held up our end No, a promise ain't a promise if we both have never held up our end Twelve-packs and cigarettes I guess they never help Think I have some kind of penchant for things detrimental to my health I wish that things were different, I just wish we were still friends 'Cause if there's one thing I know, This just all goes to show that a promise ain't a promise If we both have never held up our end I never should've went to that bar I wish I never noticed your car I shouldn't have waited, I should've just left Now I'm outside my house with a new cigarette to smoke again Why couldn't I ignore your glowing skin and smile? Why'd I let you grab my hand and lead me in? I made a promise to myself to never let this win But a promise ain't a promise if I can't hold together both ends No, a promise ain't a promise if I can't hold together both ends No, a promise ain't a promise if I can't hold together both ends I smoked my first pack in 4 years today I mean, I guess it didn't really help I think I have some kind of penchant for things detrimental to my health I guess I'm smoking again