Calm On The Outside

Yeah You never know just by looking But some of us fight like hell just to stay calm I walk in cool night and smile wide But inside it's a war I can't destroy Heart racing with a poker face Wet in fear that I can't erase People say you good, yeah, I lie smooth Can't explain this feeling that I can't prove It's like drowning in a room full of death Screaming loud, but nobody's there Calm on the outside, storming within Fighting off thoughts I don't let in They see strong, but I feel weak They hear peace, but I barely speak Yeah, I smile like I got no pain But I'm riding with a runaway train Acting like I'm fine, but I'm breaking inside That's what it's like when you calm on the outside I don't see rats, I face the floor Mind racing like a thousand doors, ain't no scars Just tight-lipped fear, so I drown in the music or a midnight beer I ain't looking for pity, just want some space Where I ain't gotta fake this face To the youth out there who hold it in I see you, I've been where you've been To the kid in class with a heavy heart To the man at work who's falling apart To the girl in the mirror with that tear-stained pride You're not weak, you're just calm on the outside Calm on the outside, my hands shake Acting like peace, but I barely breathe Still pushing, still showing up bold While anxiety's burning in a chokehold You seek control, but I'm losing grip Trying to breathe with a bite on my lip, but I ain't folding And I'm here, I survive, even if I'm calm (calm) on the outside If you feel it Ooh, oh