Colorblind (Interlude)

I was wrong and I'm sorry for that Things just haven’t been the same since I got my mind back And I try to hide the pain but I'm never good at that You can love me, you can hate me, I just want my soul back If there really is no God, who the fuck is in my head planting seeds of deceit? I guess this must be the end They say the grass is always greener on the other side But every time I try, I go colorblind (I was wrong and I'm sorry for that Things just haven’t been the same since I got my mind back And I try to hide the pain but I'm never good at that You can love me, you can hate me, I just want my soul back If there really is no God, who the fuck is in my head planting seeds of deceit? I guess this must be the end They say the grass is always greener on the other side But every time I try, I go colorblind) I've been having fucking trouble sleeping Every thought that's in my head is telling me to lose my grip and just end it No God to pray to, I have nothing left I thought this life was something more than itself I'm going crazy, can't trust myself So please just let me go and try to find hope If I lose myself, I know that I'll always be alone