To Fall Asleep

Bittersweet remedy, heal me I've tried to be everything you need of me I'm not holding my breath, I know that ruin merely rests I can feel it pressed against my chest Like a virus; I've tried to find us a way out of this hole With my hands pressed against my nose I'm trying to be holy, but I still don't feel whole I'm trying to be holy, but I still don't feel whole Can't you see that it's haunting me Every night when I try to sleep? I'm so weak Burdened by the epiphany Misery's periphery won't let me be The grass is always greener when you live in black and white I try to close my eyes, imagine everything's alright Honey like an arrow, sewn into a quiver It's in my marrow, it's in my liver You watch me wilt away like a flower without rain There's nothing you can do, honey, please just look away I am nailed to this cross, and I must carry it alone I'd ask you to hold my hands, but they're worn to the bone Can't you see that it's haunting me Every night when I try to sleep? I'm so weak Burdened by the epiphany Misery's periphery won't let me be Bittersweet remedy, leave me Its shadow follows me I try to fall asleep I try to fall asleep I try to fall asleep