Alone Again

I woke up this morning in a house not a home I woke up this morning I was all on my own Since I woke up this morning I don’t know what I’m doing I been all in my dome Everything is unknown Wonder if she’ll cooperate and stay away How do I operate on the day to day? And least last night I didn’t lay awake I freed myself of the anxiety I couldn’t shake But new anxieties that vie for taking its place And make me feel ashamed of throwing shade are always taking shape I swear I do my best to never give em space But I feel like I’m gonna break Sometimеs I need a break for goodness sake I’ll just say it I’m feeling rеally scared All this working on my spirit’s really working on my spirit NOW I'M ALONE AGAIN AFTER THINKING THAT ID NEVER BE ALONE AGAIN Couple specifics and details I've been deleting pictures and emails And texts And trying not to feel stressed each moment not knowing what’s next In truth I didn’t know what’s next before but having her arm around my neck would help me rest assured But now that ship has left the shore For sure I hope she don’t feel that I don’t love her no more I hope she don’t feel she’s not worthy of love Might have had a shot at keeping her trust If I hadn’t been so worried about all the above But None of that helps me now Being that i done gone and messed around And met my wife I built a life of days and nights of care around To then proceed to tear it down NOW IM ALONE AGAIN AFTER THINKING THAT ID NEVER BE ALONE AGAIN Frontline without no shield It is way deeper than preparing my own meals But daily I’m reminded at least she won’t put my stuff away someplace where I won’t find it Still often times I think of life and wish I could rewind it back before I lost it ‘fore I had to find it I wouldn’t be despondent Being happy is the object I could always learn the way to make a omelette I fear she’s the last of the cuties that won’t only do me for diamonds and rubies and stuff And I got no one to go to the movies wit but maybe I been going to the movies too much And plus I’m dag near forty But thinking that way feels so corny I’ma just try to enjoy myself But this is not where I saw myself ALONE AGAIN AFTER THINKING THAT ID NEVER BE ALONE AGAIN