Satellite

We learned to stop staring at the floor We learned to stop hoping it would offer us our guidance anymore There was a turn before you froze We all knew it was something when Everyone was backing up (I know it won't matter, I won't keep bringing it up) So we'll sit in silence once more So we offered silent answers (open so, as you're breaking up) Kept to myself and you kept to yourself And we hoped one another could not keep it up Moving across the hall I said I'd call There was no answer There was no reason Wandered off from the back yard There were no answers to anything we called I waited for you before we went in And you said Slept at your desk and you slept in your closet You got rid of everything but it wasn't working Fled into turning to seek rolling over There's no reason to think that anything was happening But it still feels like we're falling forever And even in dreams There're still some things that we can't make up Said it really happens if you don't wake up Thought if you concentrated hard enough you could control The governing circumstances keeping you grounded You tried but you couldn't control anything And there's no reason we set there On the grass that never grew Feigning interest in alien things So at least we had something to say Answering between clarity So at least we had some place to stray Wait on headlights when you're coming over, Still worried it won't go away And all we had as we waited there Was waiting there Promise me you'll never bother Asking me what I'm thinking when you know You know there's nothing to say You'll know what it is anyway Entirely something else than when you're alone Maybe it was something we didn't want to know Maybe it earned its place hidden under us all All the time trying to give meaning undue All the time on each other neither one of us knew Feels like we've been falling forever like a satellite Set floating there in orthogonal orbit Learned to stop commiserating Learned to stop equivocating Learned to rely on our relying on anaphora With "haiku-like imagination" Almost missed the view from the window Woke up at midnight, headlights rolling over Said there was something so important that it couldn't wait Said you were watching but you couldn't shoulder it now We learned to stop staring at the door We learned to stop wondering if we could still escape it anymore Everyone saw, I know, I know The blank frames on your book shelf Everyone felt better then (I won't, I won't) There was a place we both said we'd meet if we fall too far apart So we sit still staring at the floor So we sit still hoping that we'll actually do what we learned we should do And that either of us will find someplace to start