Not Much Left

{Verse 1: J-Formz] Man, I'm torn, because I'm grateful for the talent I got On the other hand, I feel like I took a challenge and flopped Got 50 fans, it's hard for me to argue I'm hot The other part of me feels like it's hard to argue I'm not Felt like I wanted you to know just why I'm losin my focus Cause I was startin to notice that I was goin unnoticed So, fuck it all, ain't wanna speak this pain out loud And I ain't writin a song, son, I don't wanna feel proud Was takin drugs and complainin, youd' think I softened myself But I think I'm harder now, for not offin myself Maybe I just cried wolf like one time too much Cause I just ain't know how to deal with shit when times got tough It's like my mind got stuck, and I just hope there's a reason For all the shit that I'm sayin and the fact that I'm breathin I put my pain on display, and let your eyes in my biz Can only hope, when I'm gone, they recognize what I did Can I live? [Chorus: J-Formz & sample from Joe Budden - Unnecessary Pain] Never sugar coat it when I hand it to the youth Fell from all over the world and always landed in the booth I hold music in such a high regard that, to this day, I still feel like it's destiny And to these fans that I once gave my life for, I gotta tell you, that there's not much left of me Yeah, and not that it's growin old But, years of bearin my soul have taken its toll [verse 2: J-Formz] I'm frustrated, why I'm makin somethin new for them? When they ain't hear the old shit yet, that's new to them... They claim that they love me, but they ain't listenin close Askin me questions, if you'd listen to my music, you'd know Ain't hidin nothin, most people's whole lives, they've been frontin And so the effort I give, you'd think, gotta be worth somethin I'm just blurtin out my flaws as they come when I spit Trustin I made the game better when I'm done with this shit Wishin they'd hear me the way I hear myself But if they don't, I won't change and go and be someone else How could you stand yourself runnin around bein fake? I can't sleep, and yet, I'm havin nightmares when I'm awake And so I... [Chorus: J-Formz & sample from Joe Budden - Unnecessary Pain] [Verse 3: J-Formz] Therapy don't work for me, son, I don't need to talk I know what I need to do, just gotta get up, and walk I wanna be done with the talkin, it never stops in my head Got this assumption that maybe it'll stop when I'm dead I swear, sometimes I hate this place and I'm scared Where's my parents apology for fuckin bringin me here? Cause, son, it hurts when the rain falls on my skin A victory is a loss for me, I never could win I got a splinter in my mind that gets infected with time I keep a record of it playin over beats when I rhyme This weight on my shoulders gets heavier as I get older Until the day that time defeats me and my name's forever over I put in work so you remember me To some people, I don't exist, and to some, I'm just a memory But, guess my window of opportunity shrank And though I'm grateful, I ain't got that many fans to thank That's why I... [Chorus: J-Formz & sample from Joe Budden - Unnecessary Pain]