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You know the thing about it, man? I feel like I feel like I feel like I feel like I feel like I feel like I feel like I feel like When most people go through shit anyways They're not even like Like, bro, you don't even just You don't even feel it no more You just distract yourself, distract yourself, distract yourself I feel like that's, that's just what I was doing, man Like occasionally I let myself feel stuff But on the whole man it's just I'm not even tryna think about all that shit For real, you know And a lot of shit happened You know, it weren't just, it weren't just her death It weren't just me like dealing with the grief It was like my mum, my mum had a, had like two strokes My brother had psychosis, like Fucking Candy Rain got taken down, it was bare shit, you know Like it, I just, I don't remember doing that much of feeling it And I just feel like But when it caught up to me, it caught up to me And I wanted to show what it felt like when it caught up to me But I also wanted to show the bullshit of me distracting myself 'Cause that was also when You know, I just feel like For all the grief and me going through all of this, this shit Just before then I felt like I just turned my life around From being homeless to doing the mixtape, then doing Sprinter Like I actually felt like, "Rah, my life Was going in such a sick direction" And I, and I, and I got out the mud But you know, you get out of mud, then there's always gonna be There's always gonna, there's always gonna be mud, brudda Mud is