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You know the thing about it, man?
I feel like I feel like I feel like I feel like
I feel like I feel like I feel like I feel like
When most people go through shit anyways
They're not even like
Like, bro, you don't even just
You don't even feel it no more
You just distract yourself, distract yourself, distract yourself
I feel like that's, that's just what I was doing, man
Like occasionally I let myself feel stuff
But on the whole man it's just
I'm not even tryna think about all that shit
For real, you know
And a lot of shit happened
You know, it weren't just, it weren't just her death
It weren't just me like dealing with the grief
It was like my mum, my mum had a, had like two strokes
My brother had psychosis, like
Fucking Candy Rain got taken down, it was bare shit, you know
Like it, I just, I don't remember doing that much of feeling it
And I just feel like
But when it caught up to me, it caught up to me
And I wanted to show what it felt like when it caught up to me
But I also wanted to show the bullshit of me distracting myself
'Cause that was also when
You know, I just feel like
For all the grief and me going through all of this, this shit
Just before then I felt like I just turned my life around
From being homeless to doing the mixtape, then doing Sprinter
Like I actually felt like, "Rah, my life
Was going in such a sick direction"
And I, and I, and I got out the mud
But you know, you get out of mud, then there's always gonna be
There's always gonna, there's always gonna be mud, brudda
Mud is