Alive

[Prod. by DJ Pain 1] [Intro] SL Parks on the board Real niggas in the booth, let's go I got Kdot on the keys It go (it go) Check this, listen [Verse 1] I got strangers in my face Beggin' me to take a picture Still self-centered, they can give a fuck 'bout how a nigga feel Bitches hang around to hang around even when shit get real But I ain't left nothin', maybe I should write a different will They usin' me I'm usin' them, they don't see the angle Therapeutic, I don't even fuck 'em unless it's painful Why do all these bitches seem to think they can change Joe? Judge me all you want I never claim to be an angel Patriotic, psychotic, obsessive-compulsive, convulsive, neurotic On narcotics, searchin' for you if you got it Seein' young blacks gettin' killed weekly that's a moot fact If these coppers shoot at me, trust me I'mma shoot back Maybe y'all 'll pray for me But I don't mean once or even twice, I mean every day for me So I'm on my knees, there's gotta be a better way for me Open these windows and these doors but demons stay with me And baby that's okay with me [Hook] I gave you my all, what made you wanna leave? Fuck with my heart and now it's killin' me This be enough to make a nigga cry I wish 'em well until this runnin' dry They won't ever take me alive All I ever do is survive And I know cause they already tried It's too late cause I've already died At least inside, they'll never take me alive [Verse 2] Lemme get far as fuck away from these niggas Fuck away from these hoes Where I'm at now its fuck music I don't wanna rap I don't wanna perform or host And my father's sayin' "get it together" and nothin' matters but my health Hope heaven reserved a section for an addict like myself Watchin' myself on TV see my knees shaking on that show Plus the way shorty's life is now, I bet she's rethinking that "no" She thought she was only sayin' no to marriage But that "no" is to so much more, now I can't wait to see what her path is I guess being a wife ain't sound as fun as bein' a bad bitch Couldn't deal with my habits, wasn't me though you'd been catfish We're speakin' a different language Showin' you the signs in morse code Last time a nigga loved two bitches I lost 'em both So she scared, try not to get emotionally invested I know God will find a way for those emotions to get tested Which is cool, maybe not for me Front all you want in your heart somewhere I know there's a spot for me The sad part is when it's vacant, I'll be gone How I love you but I hate you And all you're doing is being the person that I made you From hateful to graceful From rageful to grateful Then God came and snatched that space for you I tried to save it boo Everything I caught myself building to that point was made for two Writing out the script, wish you'd a told me the page was full But fuck it, He knows better than I Regret'll subside, let's sever the ties After all it's just one less goodbye [Hook] [Verse 3] Lemme get far as fuck away from these bitches Fuck away from these hoes Lemme get far as fuck away from my niggas Lemme get real close to my foes They tellin' me that I gotta act famous now, etcetera I been regular, so I feel like an anus now See all of this time I've just been treatin' y'all accordingly On an even plane like no one is any less or more than me But the Lord agrees he said, "keep playin' with fire, if you're Joseph you'll get burned" I hate second guessing I'll wait 'til the motives get confirmed (..) Call from the shorty, we off that bitch, option time Models, sport some All these cities, I got to tour one All these bottles, I got to pour one All these hoes, i got to call one Our situation is a tall one, what you gonna do, pour or run? So I'm spending forty thousand dollars on a time-piece Help my self esteem and get this shit up off my mind please Anybody lookin' for me, y'all know where to find me I be right up Steinway nigga I ain't playing hide and seek Let that liquor induce ya, then watch how fast it go from a couple niggas on the hookah To some triggers, to them shooters, everything that's going on is kinda sicker than I'm used to I'm just wrestling with them snakes, you ever kick it with Medusa? Let me get the fuck away from these pills The fuck away from this drinkin' Let me get the fuck away outta my way Let me get far as fuck away from my thinkin' 'Till it's better, it's whatever, shit I'm unapologetic Since all i got is my word nigga tell 'em that i said it It's Joe [Hook] Uhh, uhh, uhh It go [Hook]